The Sheik

"But when a woman has all three, as you have, Diana," he whispered

ardently, his hands closing over the slim ones lying in her lap.

But with a strength that seemed impossible for their smallness she

disengaged them from his grasp. "Please stop. I am sorry. We have been

good friends, and it has never occurred to me that there could be

anything beyond that. I never thought that you might love me. I never

thought of you in that way at all, I don't understand it. When God made

me He omitted to give me a heart. I have never loved any one in my

life. My brother and I have tolerated each other, but there has never

been any affection between us. Would it be likely? Put yourself in

Aubrey's place. Imagine a young man of nineteen, with a cold, reserved

nature, being burdened with the care of a baby sister, thrust into his

hands unwanted and unexpected. Was it likely that he would have any

affection for me? I never wanted it. I was born with the same cold

nature as his. I was brought up as a boy, my training was hard. Emotion

and affection have been barred out of my life. I simply don't know what

they mean. I don't want to know. I am very content with my life as it

is. Marriage for a woman means the end of independence, that is,

marriage with a man who is a man, in spite of all that the most modern

woman may say. I have never obeyed any one in my life; I do not wish to

try the experiment. I am very sorry to have hurt you. You've been a

splendid pal, but that side of life does not exist for me. If I had

thought for one moment that my friendship was going to hurt you I need

not have let you become so intimate, but I did not think, because it is

a subject that I never think of. A man to me is just a companion with

whom I ride or shoot or fish; a pal, a comrade, and that's just all

there is to it. God made me a woman. Why, only He knows."

Her quiet, even voice stopped. There had been a tone of cold sincerity

in it that Arbuthnot could not help but recognise. She meant everything

that she said. She said no more than the truth. Her reputation for

complete indifference to admiration and her unvarying attitude towards

men were as well known as her dauntless courage and obstinate

determination. With Sir Aubrey Mayo she behaved like a younger brother,

and as such entertained his friends. She was popular with everybody,

even with the mothers of marriageable daughters, for, in spite of her

wealth and beauty, her notorious peculiarities made her negligible as a

rival to plainer and less well-dowered girls.