The Rainbow
Page 242There was a moment of confusion, then the father bent over
his child: "What do you say?" he said. "Do you say thank you? Do you say
thank you, Ursula?"
"Her name's Ursula now," said the mother, smiling a
little bit ingratiatingly from the door. And she came out to
examine the jewel on the child's neck.
"It is Ursula, isn't it?" said Ursula Brangwen.
The father looked up at her, with an intimate, half-gallant,
half-impudent, but wistful look. His captive soul loved her: but
his soul was captive, he knew, always.
She wanted to go. He set a little ladder for her to climb up
to the wharf. She kissed the child, which was in its mother's
arms, then she turned away. The mother was effusive. The man
Ursula joined Skrebensky. The two young figures crossed the
lock, above the shining yellow water. The barge-man watched them
go.
"I loved them," she was saying. "He was so
gentle--oh, so gentle! And the baby was such a dear!"
"Was he gentle?" said Skrebensky. "The woman had been a
servant, I'm sure of that."
Ursula winced.
"But I loved his impudence--it was so gentle
underneath."
She went hastening on, gladdened by having met the grimy,
lean man with the ragged moustache. He gave her a pleasant warm
Skrebensky, somehow, had created a deadness round her, a
sterility, as if the world were ashes.
They said very little as they hastened home to the big
supper. He was envying the lean father of three children, for
his impudent directness and his worship of the woman in Ursula,
a worship of body and soul together, the man's body and soul
wistful and worshipping the body and spirit of the girl, with a
desire that knew the inaccessibility of its object, but was only
glad to know that the perfect thing existed, glad to have had a
moment of communion.
Why could not he himself desire a woman so? Why did he never
really want a woman, not with the whole of him: never loved,
But he would want her with his body, let his soul do as it
would. A kind of flame of physical desire was gradually beating
up in the Marsh, kindled by Tom Brangwen, and by the fact of the
wedding of Fred, the shy, fair, stiff-set farmer with the
handsome, half-educated girl. Tom Brangwen, with all his secret
power, seemed to fan the flame that was rising. The bride was
strongly attracted by him, and he was exerting his influence on
another beautiful, fair girl, chill and burning as the sea, who
said witty things which he appreciated, making her glint with
more, like phosphorescence. And her greenish eyes seemed to rock
a secret, and her hands like mother-of-pearl seemed luminous,
transparent, as if the secret were burning visible in them.