The Proverbial War

I flinched as Keko exclaimed in a hard tone, "You're a lesbian!"

"I was. At first it was just the stuff that was done on the set, but later I had a relationship with my roommate in law school that lasted for two years. I broke it off though and I haven't been with anybody since."

I still couldn't look up at him but I could feel him staring at me.

"I can't believe that you would throw everything away like that!"

I sank into the bench wishing it would swallow me up. I looked up trying to see his face through my tears and sobbed out, "I'm sorry!"

Some of the anger left his face and he looked away as he emotionally said, "I know we had it tough as kids and things were done that shouldn't have been, but I thought we left all that behind when the Pollock's adopted us when we were twelve!"

"I did too! I'm sorry that I've let you, Tom, and Esther down. I'd change it all if I had it over to do again, but I can't!"

"What are you going to do now?" Keko asked.

"I've reserved a spot on a flight out of the country in the early afternoon. I want to talk to Tom and Esther before they get their package."

"That would probably be for the best." Keko said in agreement even as his voice sounded strangely foreign to me. My head sank down as I bitterly acknowledged that I had lost my brother.

"Kim?"

I looked up to my brother.

"I need some time to get a handle on all this."

I nodded.

He started to leave, but I quickly grabbed a hold of his hand and in a pleading voice I asked, "Keko if you get a package of stuff about me please don't look at any of it!"

He nodded curtly and left the park.

My endless tears seemed frozen to my face and I shivered. I looked over at my coffee cup. It had grown cold just as my brother's love for me had.

Fresh hot tears fell as I collapsed over onto my side on the bench not caring if anybody saw me. It didn't seem to matter that I was trying to do the right thing. Oh God, I was losing everything anyway!