The Given Day (Coughlin 1)

The job was recruitment and testimony. Danny glad-handed, cajoled, harangued, and persuaded a solid one-third of all the cops he approached into writing down an accurate account of his workweek, his debts versus his income, and the conditions of the station house in which he worked. In his first three weeks back on the beat, he roped in sixty-eight men to meetings of the Boston Social Club at Fay Hall.

Whereas his time in Special Squads had been marked by a self- loathing so acute he now wondered how he'd managed to do any of it, his time doing BSC work in hopes of forming a union with true bargaining power made him feel a sense of purpose that bordered on the evangelical.

This, he decided one afternoon as he returned to the station house with three more testimonials from patrolmen in the One-Oh, was what he'd been looking for since Salutation Street: a reason why he'd been spared.

In his box, he found a message from his father asking him to come by the house that night after his shift. Danny knew few good things had ever come from one of his father's summonses, but he caught the streetcar out to South Boston just the same and rode across the city through a soft snow.

Nora answered the door, and Danny could tell she hadn't expected him to be on the other side of it. She pulled her house sweater tight across her body and took a sudden step back.

"Danny."

"Evening."

He'd barely seen her since the flu, barely seen anyone in the family except for the Sunday dinner several weeks back when he'd met Luther Laurence.

"Come in, come in."

He stepped over the threshold and removed his scarf. "Where's Ma and Joe?"

"Gone to bed," she said. "Turn around."

He did and she brushed the snow off the shoulders and back of his coat.

"Here. Give it to me now."

He removed the coat and caught a faint whiff of the perfume she wore ever so sparingly. It smelled of roses and a hint of orange.

"How are you?" Danny looked in her pale eyes, thinking: I could die.

"Just fi ne. Yourself?"

"Good, good."

She hung his coat on the tree in the hallway and carefully smoothed his scarf with her hand. It was a curious gesture, and Danny stopped breathing for a moment as he watched her. She placed the scarf on a separate hook and turned back to him and just as quickly dropped her eyes, as if she'd been caught at something, which, in a way, she had.

I would do anything, Danny wanted to say. Anything. I've been a fool. First with you, then after you, and now as I stand here before you. A fool.

He said, "I--"

"Hmm?"

"You look great," he said.

Her eyes met his again and they were clear and almost warm. "Don't."

"Don't?"

"You know what I mean." She looked at the floor, hugging her elbows.

"I'm . . ."

"What?"

"Sorry."

"I know." She nodded. "You've apologized enough. More than enough. You wanted to be"--she looked up at him--"respectable. Yes?"

Christ--not that word again, thrown back in his face. If he could remove one word from his vocabulary, erase it so that it had never taken hold and thus he never could have used it, it would be that one. He'd been drunk when he said it. Drunk and taken aback by her sudden and sordid revelations about Ireland. About Quentin Finn.

Respectable. Shit.

He held out his hands, at a loss for words.

"Now it's my turn," she said. "I'll be the respectable one." He shook his head. "No."

And he could tell by the fury that sprang into her face that she'd misinterpreted his meaning yet again. He had meant to imply that respectability was a goal unworthy of her. But she took it to mean it was something she could never attain.

Before he could explain, she said, "Your brother's asked me to marry him."

His heart stopped. His lungs. His brain. The circumnavigation of his blood.

"And?" The word came out as if strangled by vines.

"I told him I'm thinking about it," she said.

"Nora." He reached for her arm but she stepped away.

"Your father's in the study."

She walked away down the hall, and Danny knew, yet again, that he'd failed her. He was supposed to have responded differently. Faster? Slower? Less predictably? What? If he'd dropped to his knees and made his own proposal, would she have done anything but run? Yet he felt he was supposed to have made some kind of grand gesture, if only so she could have turned it down. And that would have somehow balanced the scales.

The door to his father's study opened as he stood there. "Aiden." "Danny," he corrected him through gritted teeth.

In his father's study, the snow falling through the black beyond the windows, Danny sat in one of the leather armchairs that faced the desk.

His father had a fire going and it reflected off the hearth and gave the room a glow the color of whiskey.

Thomas Coughlin still wore his uniform, the tunic open at the neck, his captain's bars sitting atop the blue shoulders while Danny wore street clothes and felt those bars smirking at him. His father handed him a scotch and sat on the corner of the desk.

His blue eyes cut through his glass as he drained it. He poured a refill from the decanter. He rolled the glass back and forth between his palms and considered his son.

"Eddie tells me you went native."

Danny caught himself rolling his own glass between his palms and dropped his left hand to his thigh. "Eddie over- dramatizes."

"Really? Because I've been given cause to wonder lately, Aiden, if these Bolshies didn't rub off on you." His father gave the room a soft smile and sipped his drink. "Mark Denton is a Bolshevik, you know. Half the BSC members are."

"Gosh, Dad, they just seem like cops to me."

"They're Bolsheviks. Talking of a strike, Aiden? A strike?" "No one's said that word in my presence, sir."

"There's a principle to be honored here, boy. Can you appreciate that?"

"And which one is that, sir?"

"Public safety above all other ideals for men who hold the badge." "Putting food on the table, sir, that's another ideal."

His father waved at the sentence like it was smoke. "Did you see the paper today? They're rioting in Montreal, trying to burn the city wholesale right to the ground. And there's no police to protect the property or the people and there's no firemen to put out the fi res because they're all out on strike. It might as well be St. Petersburg."

"Maybe it's just Montreal," Danny said. "Maybe it's just Boston."