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The Fortunes and Misfortunes of the Famous Moll Flanders

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I then began at a distance, and told him I was afraid the ladies had

got some secret information of our correspondence; for that it was easy

to see that their conduct was very much changed towards me for a great

while, and that now it was come to that pass that they frequently found

fault with me, and sometimes fell quite out with me, though I never

gave them the least occasion; that whereas I used always to lie with

the eldest sister, I was lately put to lie by myself, or with one of

the maids; and that I had overheard them several times talking very

unkindly about me; but that which confirmed it all was, that one of the

servants had told me that she had heard I was to be turned out, and

that it was not safe for the family that I should be any longer in the

house.

He smiled when he herd all this, and I asked him how he could make so

light of it, when he must needs know that if there was any discovery I

was undone for ever, and that even it would hurt him, though not ruin

him as it would me. I upbraided him, that he was like all the rest of

the sex, that, when they had the character and honour of a woman at

their mercy, oftentimes made it their jest, and at least looked upon it

as a trifle, and counted the ruin of those they had had their will of

as a thing of no value.

He saw me warm and serious, and he changed his style immediately; he

told me he was sorry I should have such a thought of him; that he had

never given me the least occasion for it, but had been as tender of my

reputation as he could be of his own; that he was sure our

correspondence had been managed with so much address, that not one

creature in the family had so much as a suspicion of it; that if he

smiled when I told him my thoughts, it was at the assurance he lately

received, that our understanding one another was not so much as known

or guessed at; and that when he had told me how much reason he had to

be easy, I should smile as he did, for he was very certain it would

give me a full satisfaction.

'This is a mystery I cannot understand,' says I, 'or how it should be

to my satisfaction that I am to be turned out of doors; for if our

correspondence is not discovered, I know not what else I have done to

change the countenances of the whole family to me, or to have them

treat me as they do now, who formerly used me with so much tenderness,

as if I had been one of their own children.' 'Why, look you, child,' says he, 'that they are uneasy about you, that

is true; but that they have the least suspicion of the case as it is,

and as it respects you and I, is so far from being true, that they

suspect my brother Robin; and, in short, they are fully persuaded he

makes love to you; nay, the fool has put it into their heads too

himself, for he is continually bantering them about it, and making a

jest of himself. I confess I think he is wrong to do so, because he

cannot but see it vexes them, and makes them unkind to you; but 'tis a

satisfaction to me, because of the assurance it gives me, that they do

not suspect me in the least, and I hope this will be to your

satisfaction too.' 'So it is,' says I, 'one way; but this does not reach my case at all,

nor is this the chief thing that troubles me, though I have been

concerned about that too.' 'What is it, then?' says he. With which I

fell to tears, and could say nothing to him at all. He strove to

pacify me all he could, but began at last to be very pressing upon me

to tell what it was. At last I answered that I thought I ought to tell

him too, and that he had some right to know it; besides, that I wanted

his direction in the case, for I was in such perplexity that I knew not

what course to take, and then I related the whole affair to him. I

told him how imprudently his brother had managed himself, in making

himself so public; for that if he had kept it a secret, as such a thing

out to have been, I could but have denied him positively, without

giving any reason for it, and he would in time have ceased his

solicitations; but that he had the vanity, first, to depend upon it

that I would not deny him, and then had taken the freedom to tell his

resolution of having me to the whole house.

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