The Choir Invisible

She looked over at him archly, but he jerked his face farther away. Then he

spoke out with the impulse to get away from her question: "I could stand to be worsted by great things. But the little ones, the low,

the coarse, the trivial! Ever since I was here last--beginning that very

night--I have been struggling like a beast with his foot in a trap. I don't

mean Amy!" he cried apologetically.

"I'm glad you've discovered there are little things," she replied. "I had

feared you might never find that out. I'm not sure yet that you have. One of

your great troubles is that everything in life looks too large to you, too

serious, too important. You fight the gnats of the world as you fought your

panther. With you everything is a mortal combat. You run every butterfly

down and break it on an iron wheel; after you have broken it, it doesn't

matter: everything is as it was before, except that you have lost time and

strength. The only things that need trouble us very much are not the things

it is right to conquer, but the things it is wrong to conquer. If you ever

conquer in yourself anything that is right, that will be a real trouble for

you as long as you live--and for me!"

He turned quickly and sat facing her, the muscles of his face moving

convulsively. She did not look at him, but went on: "The last time you were here, you told me that I did not appreciate Amy;

that I could not do her justice; but that no woman could ever understand why

a man loved any other woman."

"Did I say that?" he muttered remorsefully.

"It was because you did not appreciate he--it was because you would never be

able to do her justice--that I was so opposed to the marriage. And this was

largely a question of little things. I knew perfectly well that as soon as

you married Amy, you would begin to expect her to act as though she were

made of iron: so many pieces, so many wheels, so many cogs, so many

revolutions. All the inevitable little things that make up the most of her

life--that make up so large a part of every woman's life--the little moods,

the little play, little changes, little tempers and inconsistencies and

contradictions and falsities and hypocrisies which come every morning and go

every night,--all these would soon have been to you--oh! I'm afraid they'd

have been as big as a herd of buffalo! There would have been a bull fight

for every foible."