Stories: All-New Tales
Page 52“Well?” Mallon said. Urdang gasped at his rudeness.
“It is very much as I thought,” said the Master, opening his eyes. “I cannot be responsible for your Spencer Mallon, and you must not request any more of me. I see it all very clearly. Already, this most peculiar, this most dangerously peculiar man has awakened disorder within our village. He must leave Sankwal immediately, and you who brought him here, Urdang, you must leave with him.”
“If that is your wish, Master,” Urdang said. “But perhaps—”
“No. No more. You would be wise to separate yourself from this student as soon as you can do so honorably. And as for you, young man…”
He turned his sorrowful eyes upon Mallon, and Mallon could feel his spirit hovering near, irate and fearful.
“I advise you to take great, great care in everything you do. But it would be wisest if you did nothing at all.”
“Master, why are you afraid of me?” Mallon asked. “I want only to love you.” In truth, he had wished to love the Master before he met him. Now, he wanted only to leave the village and its frightened, envious yogi far behind him. And, he realized, if Urdang wanted to leave him, that would be fine, too.
“I am grateful you do not,” the Master said. “You will go from my village now, both of you.”
When Urdang opened the gates, the lanes were empty. The villagers had fled back to their homes. The air darkened, and rain began to fall. Before they reached open ground, the earth had been churned to mud. A loud cry came from the hut of the poor man with the sick child, whether of joy or pain they could not say.
CATCH AND RELEASE
WHEN YOU SPENT ENOUGH TIME FISHING, you got so you knew the waters. You had certain spots that had worked for you over the years, and you went to them at certain times of the day in certain seasons of the year. You chose the tackle appropriate to the circumstances, picked the right bait or lure, and tried your luck.
If they weren’t biting, you moved on. Picked another spot.
HE WAS CRUISING THE interstate, staying in the right-hand lane, keeping the big SUV a steady five miles an hour below the speed limit. As he passed each exit, he let up on the gas pedal while he kept an eye out for hitchhikers. There was a string of four exits where they were apt to queue up, college students looking to thumb their way home, or to another campus, or wherever they felt a need to go. There were so many of them, and they were always going someplace, and it hardly mattered where or why.
He drove north, passed four exits, took the fifth, crossed over and got on the southbound entrance ramp. Four more exits, then off again and on again and he was once more heading north.
Taking his time.
There were hitchhikers at each exit, but his foot never touched the brake pedal. It would hover there, but he always saw something that made him drive on. There were plenty of girls out there today, some of them especially alluring in tight jeans and braless T-shirts, but they all seemed to have boys or other girls as companions. The only solitary hitchhikers he saw were male. And he was not interested in boys. He wanted a girl, a girl all by herself.
LUKE 5:5. LORD, WE finished all night and caught nothing.
Sometimes you could drive all day, and the only reason you’d have to stop was to fill the gas tank. But the true fisherman could fish all night and catch nothing and not regard the time as ill spent. A true fisherman was patient, and while he waited he gave his mind over to the recollection of other days at the water’s edge. He’d let himself remember in detail how a particular quarry had risen to the bait and taken the hook. And put up a game fight.
And sizzled in the pan.
“No problem,” he said. “I can just about take you to your front door.”
She tossed her pack in the back, then got in front beside him. Closed the door, fastened her seat belt.
She said something about how grateful she was, and he said something appropriate, and he joined the stream of cars heading north. What, he wondered, had she seen in that quick appraising glance? What was it that had assured her he was all right?
His face was an unmemorable one. The features were regular and average and, well, ordinary. Nothing stuck out.
Once, years ago, he’d grown a mustache. He had thought it might give his face some character, but all it did was look out of place. What was it doing there on his lip? He kept it there, waiting to get used to it, and one day he realized that wasn’t going to happen, and shaved it off.
And went back to his forgettable face. Unremarkable, unthreatening. Safe.
“A FISHERMAN,” SHE SAID. “My dad likes to go fishing. Once, twice a year he’ll go away for the weekend with a couple of his buddies and come back with an ice chest full of fish. And my mom gets stuck with cleaning them, and for a week the house totally smells of fish.”
“Well, that’s a problem I’m spared,” he told her. “I’m what they call a catch-and-release fisherman.”
“You don’t come home with a full ice chest?”
She was silent for a moment. Then she asked if he thought they enjoyed it.
“The fish? Now that’s an interesting question. It’s hard to know what a fish does or doesn’t enjoy, or even if the word enjoy can be applied to a fish. You could make the case that a fish fighting for its life gets to be intensely alive in a way it otherwise doesn’t, but is that good or bad from the fish’s point of view?” He smiled. “When they swim away,” he said, “I get the sense that they’re glad to be alive. But I may just be trying to put myself in their position. I can’t really know what it’s like for them.”
“I guess not.”
“One thing I can’t help but wonder,” he said, “is if they learn anything from the experience. Are they warier the next time around? Or will they take the hook just as readily for the next fisherman who comes along?”
She thought about it. “I guess they’re just fish,” she said.
“Well now,” he said. “I guess they are.”