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Page 20“How did she do it? The papers didn’t go into detail.”
“Ella.” I shook my head, my voice strained from the sudden flash of crimson that circled her body. “She slit her wrists.”
“In the middle of the woods? She brought a knife all the way out here? Why wouldn’t she go to your place?”
“This was our place. She texted me, but my parents had taken my phone because of all the trouble I’d gotten into. The knife…the knife was my father’s.”
She looked at me with confusion as I ran my hand over my hair and blew out a heavy breath. “I kept it here. It was one of the few things I had of his. When my stepdad moved in, he took over the house. It felt like my dad never existed. I didn’t want it to become his. It was mine.” My eyes darted to the old oak tree, with the large crescent hole at its base. “My box.” I pushed to my feet and bent down to reach inside the hole, my fingers landing on the small, tin, pencil case my mother had gotten me from a yard sale. I pulled it out, staring down in disbelief at the rusted container in my hand.
Ella pushed to her feet and was now at my side, dusting the dirt from the back of her legs as she watched me. My heart was pounding in my chest as I opened the small box, forgotten for years.
Inside were a few trinkets from our secret relationship. A hair tie with a small purple flower. I remembered the day she pulled it from her hair, smiling as I ran my fingers through it. Another was a Polaroid picture we had taken together, her lips pressed against my cheek. Under the picture was a note, folded into a triangle.
Ella took the box from my hand as I stared down at the paper.
“What is it?”
“I have no idea.” Shaking my head, I slowly began to unfold the note. My eyes danced over the blue ink, immediately recognizing Katie’s handwriting.
Ry,
I know you’re probably really mad. You’re the last person I ever wanted to hurt. I tried so hard to keep what was happening a secret. I was so scared I’d lose you or get sent away. Mom and Coach came home early and caught Bryce trying to hurt me. I thought it was all over. I thought I could finally not be scared.
Bryce told them it was all my fault because I kept coming on to him. I told them everything, but they didn’t believe me.
Coach told me that if I said a word to anyone, he would tell the school I was a whore and I was sleeping with you. He said he would tell everyone you were jealous of his son and trying to ruin his chance at a scholarship. I can’t let them hurt you, and I can’t let them hurt me anymore.
My mother called my dad and told him they were sending me to live with him because I wouldn’t leave Bryce alone. My father said he didn’t want me, and I was her problem. I don’t want to be anyone’s problem anymore.
I love you
Katie
I crumbled the paper in my fist as I thought over what I’d just discovered. Katie thought I’d be better off without her. She was all alone and thought I was ignoring her when she needed me most. Worse, her own parents betrayed her. I had the proof all these years and didn’t know it.
“What? What did it say?”
Turning to Ella, seeing her eyes pleading with me for answers, I struggled to contain myself. “My to-do list just got longer.”
Her eyebrows furrowed as she waited for answers, but I couldn’t find the words to tell this girl that she had been betrayed by those who took her in and promised her a safe haven.
“Ella, everything I touch turns to shit.” I turned away from her, wondering what would have happened had I discovered this note after Katie died. Everything would have been different. Ella had a shot at a normal childhood after being abandoned by her real parents. Poison. I destroyed everything. I was a plague. Now I had pulled Ella into my world, and there was no way she would walk out of this unscathed.
I’d never be able to stop. Every layer of the story uncovered more deception and pain. I had to walk away from Katie in this very spot, and I didn’t know if I would survive walking away from Ella too.
My throat was dry, my heart crushed, but I faked a smile, slipping the mask back into place. “She told me good-bye. She said she loved me.”
Ella’s expression softened as her fingers rubbed lightly over my arm. “That’s great, Ryder.”
“It’s excruciating. We should go. It’s getting late, and we need to eat.”
She nodded, unsure, but followed behind me as I took the path from the woods to my father’s car. There was no way I was going to escape what I had to do. I couldn’t let Ella go down with me. The least I could do was put an end to her nightmares so she could have some semblance of a normal life.
We didn’t speak the entire ride back to my parent’s house. My mother had cooked meatloaf and was setting the table as we walked through the front door. She did a double take when she saw Ella.
“Ryder, what are you doing here?”
“I came back earlier, but you weren’t here. I decided to take Dad’s car for a drive and show Ella around.”
She nodded, setting down a plate in front of her chair. “You know that’s your car, Ryder. That’s what your dad wanted.”
“That’s what you wanted. It was his car.”
She shook her head as she grabbed two extra plates from the cupboard. “Ryder, he was fixing up that car for you. It was going to be a graduation present. He used to go on and on about how you had to look the part if you were going to be a rock star.”
“Why didn’t you tell me this before?”
“You never came around, never answered calls.”
I struggled not to show my anger. My mother was the reason I was gone for so many years. I always assumed she wanted me to stay gone.
“You knew where I was for years. You could have come to visit.”
Sighing heavily, she used a spatula to cut the meatloaf into slices. “I couldn’t look at my son in that place.”
“Did you ever think of how it felt to be there, alone?”
“Ryder, you had plenty of friends. Look at your band.” She smiled, and I realized I wasn’t the only one who wore a mask, pretending I was someone else. “Now sit and eat some food. Tell me how you met your…friend here.” She gestured to the other chairs as Ella looked to me. I nodded, pulling out a seat for her and waiting for her to sit before sinking down into my own.
“Ella, this is my mother, Kirsten. Ella and I have mutual acquaintances.”
“Ahh…well, it is nice to meet you.”
“Nice to meet you too.” Ella blushed as my mother dished a slice of the meatloaf onto her plate. “Thank you.”
I knew my mother was dying to say something about her resemblance to Katie but was biting her tongue. The front door opened, and Mr. Thomas walked in, grumbling about a late meeting. When he stepped into the kitchen, he stopped, his mouth hanging open.
“Ryder?”
He smiled, genuinely happy to see me. “Good to have you home, son.” I rolled my neck, cracking it as I struggled not to correct him. Nodding, I took a bite of my food.
“Well, this is not such a bad day after all.” He leaned down, kissing my mother on the cheek before taking his own seat and dishing out his food. “Who is your friend?”
“Ella, this is Stephen.”
Dinner conversation was minimal. My mother asked questions about the band and where I had been since I’d gotten out. All I could think about was Bryce. Ella helped my mother clear the table as I disappeared into my old bedroom. It hadn’t changed since I’d left, except there was no dirty laundry on the floor. Sinking down on the bed, I tried to sort through my thoughts. My eyes went unfocused as I stared at the dream catcher that hung next to my bed. This small, mass produced trinket had meant the world to Ella.
There was too much information to process. It was impossible to sit next to Ella, knowing she wasn’t going to forgive me after I did what I needed to do. But I had no other choice. There was only one way I could make all of this right, and it was to eliminate all of the evil from her life.
I composed myself and went back out into the kitchen to let my mother know I was exhausted but I would visit again soon.
Driving down the winding back roads, Ella sat beside me, her hands in her lap, not saying a word. I reached into my pocket and pulled the dream catcher from my bedroom out, handing it to her.
“That one has his name on it.”
She turned it over in her hands, running her fingers along the small webbing of the center. “How are you going to do it?”
I stretched the muscles in my neck as I turned onto Interstate 95, northbound.
“I’m not.” I glanced over at her as I slid my hand into my pocket and pulled out the old pocketknife I’d found in New Orleans. It was similar to the one that belonged to my father. I’d always planned on killing Bryce the way his actions ultimately ended Katie’s life. But Ella still had to live with the scars and the nightmares that plagued her.
I held the knife out, and she took it, eyeing it curiously as she pulled the blade out of its casing. She pressed the tip of her finger against the point as she eyed her reflection in the blade.
“I don’t think I can.” She shook her head.
“You won’t have to either. Bryce is going to kill himself.” I drove off the exit ramp and traveled a few more miles down the road before pulling into a Best Western parking lot. “We should have a plan tonight.”
Nodding, she unbuckled her seat belt and pushed open her door.
I paid for a room, dying to get her alone, but there was work to be done, and I needed to know exactly where Bryce and his family were now.
The room was larger than the others we’d stayed at in the past, with a love seat and small table for two. The walls were beige and all the furniture white, including the comforter on the king-size bed. Ella kicked off her shoes, dropping her bag on the couch. She pulled her purse strap over her head, dropping that as well.
“We should figure out how the day will go tomorrow so there are no surprises.” She nodded, pulling the clip from her hair, my eyes lost in the dark waves. I dropped my bag on the floor and grabbed the hotel note pad and pen from the nightstand beside the bed. Now wasn’t the time to be thinking about being inside Ella. It was time to feed the other monster first.
I dropped the note pad on the table beside her. I needed an address and directions. Tucking her hair behind her ear, she sat down on the chair, her leg bent underneath her. I gripped the back of the other chair as I watched her write.
“How did you get this?” I grabbed the pad and read over the address.
“Bryce liked to talk to me…after.” She cringed, and I struggled to not go after him right now.
Grinding my teeth, I forced myself to keep my composure for Ella’s sake. “What did he say?”
Sinking to eye level, I placed my fingers under her chin and forced her to look me in the eye. “I want to know everything he did to you so I can make sure he gets it worse than he ever gave it.”
“He would talk about the things he wanted to do to me, these sick fantasies he saw online. He was going to take me to a place he rented down in Redmond.”
“He doesn’t have any properties in his name.”
“It’s a place a bunch of guys pay for, and they each get a few weeks there a year.”
“A time-share?”
“Maybe. I don’t know.” Her shoulders slumped, and I dropped my hand to her leg, rubbing over the bare flesh.
“It’s okay. You’re doing good. What about these other guys? Have you ever met them?”
“No. He never got the chance to take me there. I ran away after I ended up in the hospital.”
“Good girl.” I was dying inside but thankful that Bryce’s friends never got their hands on Ella. “You’re a fighter. I love that about you.”
Her eyes widened, and I immediately regretted my choice of words, but as her cheeks tinged pink, I couldn’t help but smile.
“I wasn’t very good at fighting, hence the hospital.” Rolling her eyes, she adjusted in her seat.
“I promise you Bryce won’t win his next fight. He will pay for what he did.”
“I’ll just be glad when this is finally over.”
I swallowed against the sudden dryness in my throat. Ella didn’t know what this being over would entail, but hopefully it would give her some peace, and she’d be able to move on. She deserved to be a wife and mother, never having to look over her shoulder.
“Soon.” I feigned a smile, desperate to keep my mask in place, but it was slipping. I’d never shared so much with anyone, not even Katie. I was too ashamed to tell her about my father, afraid she’d leave me. “But I need to make sure I have all the information you have, okay? We’re almost done.”
Standing up, I stretched and reached for her hand. She slid her fingers over my palm, and I pulled her to her feet. I grabbed her bags from the small love seat and sat them on the floor before sitting down and pulling her down next to me. She turned her back to my side, leaning against me and keeping my arm around her waist.
“These other guys,” I said, clearing my throat as I searched for the right way to phrase my question. “They do the things Bryce did to others?”
She shrugged, and I hated that I couldn’t see her expression, but maybe it would be easier for her to open up without having to look me in the eye.
“I think so.”
“You said he talked to them on the Internet. Did he ever mention a website or a group?”