Not Flesh Nor Feathers
Page 553:52 said the clock. A funny hour—either very late or very early, depending.
I wondered what time it was in North Carolina, and then I realized what a stupid thought that was, since we were both on Eastern Time. I dialed ten digits from memory and let the phone ring and ring and ring.
“This had better be important,” the answerer slurred and growled.
“No caller ID? Or do I get special dispensation for shit like this?”
“Eden?”
“Hey Dana.”
She dropped the phone, or maybe adjusted it. I heard her shifting her body in bed, maybe sitting up or rolling over. “Holy shit, yeah. I called. I guess they gave you the message? Fuck the hour. Glad to hear from you.”
“I haven’t checked my messages, exactly. It’s been a busy couple of days. But I’m here now, home. I’m back at Signal Mountain. But I wanted to call you. I think I need to talk to you.”
I smiled into the phone. She understood best; she always did. Better than Harry, even. “From a relative standpoint, I’m okay but not quite fine. I’m sorry, I know it’s late. But there was no one else whose voice I really wanted to hear. It’s been bad.”
“I hear. What I hear, though—that wasn’t a fraction of it, was it?”
“It’ll take some time to tell. It might not all fit into a phone call.”
“I understand,” she said, because she did. “Maybe it’s time for you to take a road trip. A little vacation.”
“I might need more than a vacation,” I confessed. “Things are different here now.”“Naw. You’re just seeing things differently now.”
“Whichever. Whatever. Same end result.”
“No, I don’t need a vacation. I actually feel pretty good for the first time in days. Something has been wrong for a while; you know that better than anyone. Ever since Avery died I’ve felt so much stronger, but every time I’ve used that strength it’s taxed me. And now Malachi’s dead, too, and I don’t know how these curse things work—but maybe things will be better now, or different. And even if things get worse, I’m not going to learn how fix them by staying here.”
“But you’ve made plans there in Tennessee. What about school? What about getting your own place?”
“The place I planned to claim is underwater, and it will probably be condemned once it dries out. The school, hell. Half of that probably went under water too. Everything’s broken and shut down. If I stay, I’ll just stay broken and shut down with it.”
She breathed quietly for a few seconds before she responded. “It’s going to take time to recover. It takes people time, and it’ll take Chattanooga time. You could always make that your new direction, if you think you need a change in plans. You could stick around and become part of the recovery effort. It’ll never get better if people don’t work towards making it better. Even after what happened in New Orleans, the city’s still alive, and it’s coming back a little more every day.”
“Ah,” I smiled, but there wasn’t any joy in it, “but this isn’t New Orleans, and people here—they don’t love this place, not the way natives of New Orleans love their home. Here, if people get out of town and find success, they keep their mouths shut about it. They don’t tell anyone, and if they come home, they keep it short and sweet. There’s a jinx on the place; there’s this current that sucks everything down if you wade here long enough. This isn’t New Orleans. No one wants to be from here. No one ever loves this place except for out-of-towners who move here, settle down, and mistake it for something it isn’t.”
A pause hung between us. “That’s a little harsh,” Dana finally said.
“No. I’m just tired of romanticizing the place. I never hated this town enough to want to destroy it; but it turns out I don’t love it enough to try and save it, either.” I stopped talking and snuggled back against the pillow, trying to think of something else to say. “Why do you think Benny left? Talk to him, if you think I’m overreacting. He’s a prime example of what I mean. The moment you gave him a lifeline out of the valley, he hopped all over it. How’s he doing, anyway? Is he okay?”
“Lighthouses?”
“It happens more often than you’d think. If the ratings are good, I’m going to see about pitching ships and amusement parks next. People eat it up. But we’re going to be busy—rich and busy. Can always use a few new hands up here, especially hands like yours, if you finally take me up on my offer. When can I expect you?” she asked, and then, before I had time to answer, “How long can I expect you to stay?”
I wasn’t sure what to say, so I breathed into the receiver for a few seconds while I thought about it. I was about to start crying again, but I kicked it back long enough to respond . . . held it down long enough to answer her, and to convince myself that I meant it.
“How long will you have me?”