Love Unscripted
Page 61“Taryn, honey, look at me,” he pleaded. I noticed his voice crack.
I shrugged my shoulders, trying to escape from his hands. “I can’t.” My heart was breaking and I wanted to get away from the source of the pain.
“Please?” he begged.
“No. No,” I said adamantly, my voice trembled uncontrollably. I tasted the salt from my tears as they dripped across my lips. I struggled in his hands, but he still wouldn’t let go.
“No. It’s all right.” I swallowed hard. “You don’t have to say anything. You don’t owe me. Let’s just go back to the party and when it’s over we’ll say our goodbyes.”
My words burned in my throat and my heart crumbled to pieces. I had to let him go.
As much as I love you, you can never be mine.
His hands shook my arms.
“Please, just… let me go,” I whispered between sobs.
“Taryn? No! No! Please baby. Look at me. Look into my eyes. Please!” It almost sounded like he was crying too.
“Look at me!” he shouted.
The moment I looked up, new tears streamed down my face. I didn’t want him to see me like this.
“I have no intentions to walk away from you or let any amount of distance ruin this. Will it be difficult for us? Yes. Will it hurt me just as bad to be away from you? Yes.”
Tears fell from Ryan’s eyes.
My knees felt weak. I hadn’t expected that response from him.
“With you, Taryn!” he stressed, looking directly into my eyes. “I don’t want anyone else - just you. And no matter where I am, wherever I go, you’re the only one who is holding my heart.”
He felt that I wasn’t resisting so he eased up on the grip he had on my arm. His grasp that once kept me from running away now held me up where I stood.
“We’ll figure out a way to make it work. I promise,” he solemnly vowed.
“I have plenty of time between my schedules to come back here, and when I can’t be here, I’ll get you on a plane. No matter what, I’m not going to let you go.” He stressed his last words.
“I’m falling in love with you, too,” I confessed, looking up into his warm, blue eyes. “That’s why it hurts so much.”
He pulled me into a comforting embrace and crushed his lips on mine. I felt the weight of my uncertainties lift off my heart as I read his lips and the message his kiss conveyed. Knowing that he wanted me, hearing that he didn’t want it to end, was exactly what I needed to move forward.
His kiss ended and he sighed heavily.
“Oh, Sweetheart, don’t worry. You’re not gonna get rid of me that easily.”
“That’s good to know,” I murmured on his chest.
Ryan hugged me, stroking his hand over my hair.
“I didn’t know. I wasn’t sure how long you and I...” I sniffed. “If this, between us, was only until you left Seaport.”
“No. That was never my intention.” He kissed my head.
“I don’t know about you, but my feelings for you started way before that!” He tried to joke.
“Mine too,” I admitted. “But Suzanne kept picking until she found my weakness.” I sighed, collecting myself further.
“Ryan, I know you have obligations that will tear you away from here. Suzanne informed me of all of them, emphasizing how much you need your freedom. The thought of never seeing you again was excruciating. Allowing myself to fall madly in love with you and then having to let you go for good, I don’t know if I could survive that.”
Ryan softly kissed me. “I know how you feel. A few minutes ago when you broke up with me, I felt that same excruciating pain.”
“I’m so sorry,” I whispered, drowning in regret for hurting him.
“It’s okay, honey. I understand,” he said while gently rocking me back and forth.
I wiped the moisture from my cheeks. “I’m sorry for falling apart.”
“Stop apologizing. It’s all right.” He hugged me tighter. “Just don’t ever break up with me again.” He sounded truly rattled as he kissed my forehead.
“I swear I never will. The same goes for you,” I muttered.
“I’ve already fallen for you so you’re stuck with me,” Ryan assured me.
“You know my parents are coming here in two weeks, and they are expecting to meet the woman I told them I’m falling in love with – you!” He smiled and rubbed my cheek with his thumb. “I’ve already told my mom how crazy I am about you.”
I nodded my head and smiled back. “I really want to meet your parents.”
He softly kissed me and rested his forehead on mine. “And I want you to meet them. I’m looking forward to introducing them to my one and only girlfriend.”
“Did you get her back?” He sounded hopeful.
“I got one good one in there. Marie got her a few times too. It was like she wanted the challenge.”
“I knew I shouldn’t have left. That’s why I didn’t want to go downstairs.”
“She would have gotten to me sooner or later. She seemed hell-bent on getting her point across.”
He took my hand in his and held it to his lips. “Well, now you know exactly how I feel so it doesn’t matter what she or anyone else says. All right?”
I nodded in agreement.
“I told you I’m yours!” he reminded. “I knew you didn’t believe me! Do you believe me now?”
I felt silly for doubting him. “Yes!” I laughed out.
Ryan slipped his hand into my hair and held my face to his, kissing me passionately.
“Let’s go get you freshened up,” he suggested, rubbing his thumb under my eye.
“You know, if you were on set right now, you’d have a team of makeup artists touching up your face.”
“You speak from experience?” I muttered while reapplying some eyeliner. I already knew his answer.
“Yes, it’s true. I openly admit it. I wear makeup and lip color just about every day,” he stated in a joking fashion. “It’s quite emasculating, although I do like the way my skin feels afterwards.”