Letters of Two Brides
Page 89"You must think me a fool; and, indeed, the delirium of my joy has
robbed me of both nerve and wits. But of this at least be assured,
whatever you do is sacred in my eyes from the very fact that it seemed
right to you. I honor you as I honor only God besides. And then, Miss
Griffith is here." "She is here for the sake of the others, not for us," I put in
hastily. My dear, he understood me at once.
"I know very well," he said, with the humblest glance at me, "that
whether she is there or not makes no difference. Unseen of men, we are
to us than that of the world."
"Thank you, Felipe," I said, holding out my hand to him with a gesture
which you ought to see. "A woman, and I am nothing, if not a woman, is
on the road to loving the man who understands her. Oh! only on the
road," I went on, with a finger on my lips. "Don't let your hopes
carry you beyond what I say. My heart will belong only to the man who
can read it and know its every turn. Our views, without being
I have no wish to exaggerate my own merits; doubtless what seem
virtues in my eyes have their corresponding defects. All I can say is,
I should be heartbroken without them."
"Having first accepted me as your servant, you now permit me to love
you," he said, trembling and looking in my face at each word. "My
first prayer has been more than answered."
"But," I hastened to reply, "your position seems to me a better one
lies with you to bring about." "In my turn, I thank you," he replied. "I know the duties of a
faithful lover. It is mine to prove that I am worthy of you; the
trials shall be as long as you choose to make them. If I belie your
hopes, you have only--God! that I should say it--to reject me."
"I know that you love me," I replied. "So far," with a cruel
emphasis on the words, "you stand first in my regard. Otherwise you
would not be here."