Lair of Dreams

“S-sorry, Wally, I… I felt sick, and I guess I fell asleep.”

Wally sighed. “You been sick a lot lately.”

“Sorry. I’m jake now, though,” Henry said, slipping into his spot at the piano. He wiped a hand across his clammy forehead. Sweat dampened his armpits and the front of his shirt. Onstage, the rest of the cast and crew were crowded around Theta, congratulating her on the day’s splashy newspaper article heralding ZIEGFELD GIRL RUSSIAN ROYALTY.

“Now that we’re all here,” Wally said pointedly, “let’s take the Slumberland number from the top!”

Dancers scampered into position onstage, tugging at bloomers and securing tap shoes. Henry’s earlier fear faded, replaced by exuberance as he opened the score. Finally, one of his songs had made it into the show. He put fingers to the keys, playing along, his excitement vanishing quickly as the tap-dancing chorus girls sang along:

“Don’t you worry, don’t be blue

Everything you dream comes true

Sing vodee-oh-doh, Yankee-Doodle-Doo

And shuffle off to Slum-ber-laaand!”

Henry’s breathing went tight, as if he’d been punched. The song was awful. His song. They’d ruined it. And they’d done it behind his back. Henry stopped playing.

“What’s the matter? You lose your place?” Wally asked. “You feeling sick again?”

Henry gestured to the piano score. “These aren’t my words. Where’s the song I wrote?”

“Well, uh, Herbie smoothed it over a bit,” Wally said.

“It wasn’t quite polished. I just gave it some zip and pep,” Herbie Allen said from the back row, as if he were Mr. Ziegfeld himself.

Onstage, everything had come to a standstill.

“What’s the big idea? Are we running the number or aren’t we?” one of the girls asked.

Wally wagged a finger. “Henry, play the song.”

“No,” Henry said. It was a word he used so infrequently that he was startled by the feel of it on his tongue. “I want to play my song.”

Whispers of gossip rippled down the chorus line.

“Everybody needs help now and then. Don’t take it personally, old boy,” Herbie said. Henry wasn’t a violent fellow, but right then, he had the urge to punch Herbert in his smug mouth.

“How else would I take it, Herbert, when you massacre my song?”

“Now, see here, old boy—”

“I am not your boy,” Henry growled.

The entire cast was silent as they looked from Henry to Wally to Herbert and back again. Suddenly, Mr. Ziegfeld’s voice boomed out from the very back row.

“Mr. DuBois, you are a rehearsal accompanist. I do not pay you for your musical interpretation.” The impresario marched down the aisle and stood in the middle like the commander of a mutinying ship.

“No, Mr. Ziegfeld, I’m not. I’m a songwriter. My songs are a damn sight better than this garbage.”

One of the midwestern chorus girls gasped.

“Forgive my language,” Henry added.

Mr. Ziegfeld gave Henry a flinty stare. “Your time will come, if you behave, Mr. DuBois. Now. Let’s get back to the number. We have a show to rehearse.”

The great Ziegfeld turned on his heel. The dancers shuffled quickly into formation. Just like that, Henry had been dismissed, no discussion. In his head, he heard his father’s voice: You will go to law school. You will uphold the family name. You will never see that boy again. A dam gave way inside Henry.

“Mr. Ziegfeld!” Henry called, rising from the bench. “You keep saying we’ll add more of my songs, but it seems like I never can get that chance. It always goes to some other fella.”

“Henry…” Theta warned, but Henry was beyond warnings.

“I’m out of waiting, sir. If you don’t want my song, well, I guess you don’t need me. I’ll pack up and go.”

The great Ziegfeld didn’t even rise from his seat. “I wish you luck. But you’ll get no recommendation from me.”

In her tap shoes, Theta clip-clopped to the front of the stage and cupped a hand over her eyes to cut the glare of the lights. “He’s just tired, Flo. He doesn’t mean it.”

“Don’t talk for me, Theta. I mean every word.”

“You’re free to go, Mr. DuBois. Herbie, could you play for us, please? Wally—from the top.”

As the horrible number started up again, Henry marched down the aisle and pushed through the theater doors onto noisy Forty-second Street. The enormous marquee loomed over his head. Foot-high black letters promised AN ALL-NEW REVUE!