Jude the Obsure
Page 248"... And she humbled her body greatly, and all the places
of her joy she filled with her torn hair."--ESTHER (Apoc.).
"There are two who decline, a woman and I,
And enjoy our death in the darkness here."
--R. BROWNING.
I
On their arrival the station was lively with straw-hatted young men,
welcoming young girls who bore a remarkable family likeness to their
welcomers, and who were dressed up in the brightest and lightest of
raiment.
"The place seems gay," said Sue. "Why--it is Remembrance
"Yes," said Jude quietly, as he took charge of the small child, and
told Arabella's boy to keep close to them, Sue attending to their own
eldest. "I thought we might as well come to-day as on any other."
"But I am afraid it will depress you!" she said, looking anxiously at
him up and down.
"Oh, I mustn't let it interfere with our business; and we have a good
deal to do before we shall be settled here. The first thing is
lodgings."
Having left their luggage and his tools at the station they proceeded
on foot up the familiar street, the holiday people all drifting in
off to where accommodation was likely to be found when, looking at
the clock and the hurrying crowd, Jude said: "Let us go and see the
procession, and never mind the lodgings just now? We can get them
afterwards."
"Oughtn't we to get a house over our heads first?" she asked.
But his soul seemed full of the anniversary, and together they went
down Chief Street, their smallest child in Jude's arms, Sue leading
her little girl, and Arabella's boy walking thoughtfully and silently
beside them. Crowds of pretty sisters in airy costumes, and meekly
ignorant parents who had known no college in their youth, were under
written large on them that no properly qualified human beings had
lived on earth till they came to grace it here and now.
"My failure is reflected on me by every one of those young
fellows," said Jude. "A lesson on presumption is awaiting me
to-day!--Humiliation Day for me! ... If you, my dear darling, hadn't
come to my rescue, I should have gone to the dogs with despair!"
She saw from his face that he was getting into one of his
tempestuous, self-harrowing moods. "It would have been better if we
had gone at once about our own affairs, dear," she answered. "I am
sure this sight will awaken old sorrows in you, and do no good!"