Hate to Love You
Page 2I skimmed a look over at Linde. He had a round face with laugh lines creased by his mouth and eyes. I’d heard him laugh enough over the past two weeks to know they were there for a reason. He was large, built like an ox, and whenever I looked at him, I was hit with the urge to hug him like a teddy bear.
“How’d you know my last name?” I refused to look at Shay Coleman.
Did he know my first name, too?
“Gage told me to look out for his little sister, Kennedy Clarke.”
I looked over and tried not to feel the punch to my chest. God. He was gorgeous. Those eyes were focused right on me. They weren’t looking away. All of his concentration was there. My mouth was dry.
“You’re friends with my brother?”
When did that happen? I doubted that was true. Gage would’ve been preening like a peacock about it.
Those eyes were still laughing at me. He lifted his lips up in a slight smirk, slight grin. “He was at a party. We got to talking about classes. Told me to look out for you.” Those lips lifted the rest of the way into a full smirk. “He said his sister would have a chip on her shoulder. Knew right away who he was talking about.”
Air escaped me. Gage was a shithead.
I struggled to keep a mask on my face. “That’s hilarious.”
The twinkle in Shay’s eyes told me he thought it was, and I got it. I did. I came off as a bitch, but trust me. There was a reason. I’d learned it was better to start swinging first than to get hit by someone else, metaphorically speaking.
Linde lifted up the worksheet. “We’re supposed to talk about abortion.” He pointed at the other two girls. “Guessing you two chicks are pro-choice?”
The prettier one rolled her eyes. “Shut up, Ray. Just because we have vaginas doesn’t mean we’re about abortions.”
“Yeah, but don’t you want to have the right to choose?”
Shay moved his seat closer toward them, which brought him also closer to me. His large knees brushed against mine, then they moved as he leaned forward and rested his arms on his desk.
“Uh.” The friend coughed and jerked forward in her seat. Her elbows rested on her desk. “What’s the worksheet asking us to discuss? Our individual opinions?”
Linde’s finger smacked at his sheet. “Number one.” He angled his head to read from it. “Discuss the abortion law.”
“That doesn’t mean we have to talk about our personal opinions.” The prettier one ripped the sheet from his hands. She hunched over it, her finger moving as she read more of the question. “To further develop your own position on abortion, review the following points raised by a pro-life and a pro-choice view. Your group must present your discussion to the class.” She snorted and pushed the worksheet back to Linde. “Fuck that. I’m not presenting anything.”
Linde looked warily at the paper.
“I’ll present it for us.” Shay leaned forward, his knee resting against mine again as he reached for the worksheet. “What about you, Clarke? What’s your opinion on abortion?”
I shrugged. I had no opinion.
Why was his knee touching me?
“Come on.” The prettier girl raised her eyebrows in encouragement. “You have to have an opinion.”
“What’s yours?”
A low chuckle came from Shay, and the girl’s eyes snapped to him. He ignored the look, picking up a pen to write whatever she said. His leg could’ve moved from mine again, but it didn’t. He kept it there, pressing right against me.
He raised his eyebrows, too. “Hmmm, Becs? I’m ready to write.”
“Fuck you, Coleman.” She flushed. Her neck grew red, but his eyes were holding steady on her, and a little grin appeared on her face. “I don’t know. What do you want me to say?”
“Say what you think and why,” Shay drawled. That smirk was still there, along with another twinkle in his eye.
Her cheeks were full-on pink as she looked down at the desk, shrugging her slender shoulders. She clasped her hands together, resting her arms fully on her desk so they fell off, as if she were reaching toward him. “I don’t know. I mean, my family’s religious.”
“Yeah. What about you?” But she wasn’t asking him. Her eyes were on Shay. It was obvious whom her question was directed toward.
He lifted up his pen and grinned. “I’m just the reporter for the group. You guys tell me what to write.”
Linde swore, grinning and shaking his head.
“Come on.” Becs’ smile spread. “You have to tell us.”
He grunted. “What about you, Amy?”
The plainer friend coughed. “It’s Aby, and I don’t know.” The two girls shared a look. “I guess I feel the same. My dad’s a pastor. I kind of have to be pro-life, you know?”
Linde’s eyes widened. “Your dad’s a pastor?”
Becs laughed, gesturing her hands in a lowering motion. “Settle down. She’s got a boyfriend.”
Linde frowned at her. “It isn’t like that. I’m just surprised—”
Aby cut in, “He doesn’t go here.”
Becs’s head went back to her friend. “Why would you say that?”
Aby shrugged again, tucking some hair behind her ear. “What? I mean, he doesn’t. He goes to Methal. It’s four hours away.”
“Isn’t Methal a Christian college?”
I glanced sideways to Shay. He had a serious look on his face, but not in his eyes. It’s the same look he gave me the first day of class. He’d been laughing at me then, and he was laughing at these people now.
This was grating on my nerves.
I must’ve made a noise, because all eyes turned to me.
I could feel Shay’s smirk growing even as he asked, “Yes? You got a different opinion?”
I straightened in my seat, shrugging. “I don’t have an opinion, but it isn’t because of who my dad is or if my boyfriend goes to a Christian college. I don’t have an opinion, because it hasn’t happened to me yet. When it does, if it does, I’ll figure it out then. It’ll be my opinion, though. It won’t be because someone close to me told me how to think.”
Linde’s lips puckered together, and he leaned back. I thought I heard a, “Well, damn” from him.
Becs inclined her head toward me. “Are you saying I don’t have a real opinion?”
“I’m not saying it to be mean, but that’s what you said. And that’s my opinion on what you said.”
“Excuse me?” Her lips thinned.
“You’re pro-life because your family’s religious.” I held my hands out toward her. “You said it yourself.” I looked at Aby, but she already knew what was coming. She started to shift back in her seat. “You said the same thing. Your dad is a pastor, and you can’t think a different way. I’m not sure about the whole boyfriend thing, but you still used your dad as your defining point.” I leaned back in my seat.
See. I still had some of the lawyer spark in me. Not enough to keep going with these classes, but it was there.
Linde started laughing.
I turned to him. “How about you? What’s your opinion since Mr. Reporter is pleading the fifth?”
“Uh.” His laughter dried up, and his eyes shifted among all of us. “I guess,” he tugged at his shirt’s collar, “I’m pro-choice.” His head dipped just slightly to the right, as if to say, “There, I said it.” Then he turned to the other girls. “My sister was raped. She didn’t want to have his kid when she was fourteen. So, yeah”—his eyes flicked to mine again—“I’m pro-choice, because there’s no way I’m going against my little sister and the guilt and torment she feels every day because some dick decided to force his inside her.” ns class="adsbygoogle" style="display:block" data-ad-client="ca-pub-7451196230453695" data-ad-slot="9930101810" data-ad-format="auto" data-full-width-responsive="true">