Great Expectations
Page 345"If I give you the money for this purpose, will you keep my secret as
you have kept your own?"
"Quite as faithfully."
"And your mind will be more at rest?"
"Much more at rest."
"Are you very unhappy now?"
She asked this question, still without looking at me, but in an unwonted
tone of sympathy. I could not reply at the moment, for my voice failed
me. She put her left arm across the head of her stick, and softly laid
her forehead on it.
"I am far from happy, Miss Havisham; but I have other causes of disquiet
After a little while, she raised her head, and looked at the fire Again.
"It is noble in you to tell me that you have other causes of
unhappiness, Is it true?"
"Too true."
"Can I only serve you, Pip, by serving your friend? Regarding that as
done, is there nothing I can do for you yourself?"
"Nothing. I thank you for the question. I thank you even more for the
tone of the question. But there is nothing."
She presently rose from her seat, and looked about the blighted room
for the means of writing. There were none there, and she took from her
wrote upon them with a pencil in a case of tarnished gold that hung from
her neck.
"You are still on friendly terms with Mr. Jaggers?"
"Quite. I dined with him yesterday."
"This is an authority to him to pay you that money, to lay out at your
irresponsible discretion for your friend. I keep no money here; but if
you would rather Mr. Jaggers knew nothing of the matter, I will send it
to you."
"Thank you, Miss Havisham; I have not the least objection to receiving
it from him."
evidently intended to absolve me from any suspicion of profiting by the
receipt of the money. I took the tablets from her hand, and it trembled
again, and it trembled more as she took off the chain to which the
pencil was attached, and put it in mine. All this she did without
looking at me.
"My name is on the first leaf. If you can ever write under my name, "I
forgive her," though ever so long after my broken heart is dust pray do
it!"