Gone
Page 22“I love you,” she says, soulfully. Means it. Means it so much.
“Love you, too.”
Janie goes, arms outstretched and her fingers entwined in Cabel’s until they can’t reach anymore, and then she reluctantly lets her arm drop and walks slowly across the yards to her street, her house.
Lies awake on her back. And her mind shifts from Cabe to the earlier events of the day. To Henry.
12:39 a.m.
She can’t stop thinking about him.
Because, what if?
And how is she supposed to know, unless . . . ?
Janie slips out of bed, puts her clothes on and grabs her phone, house key, and a snack for energy. The bus is empty except for the driver.
Thankfully, he’s not asleep.
12:58 a.m.
Janie’s flip-flops slap the hospital floor and echo through the otherwise quiet hallways. An orderly with an empty gurney nods to Janie as he exits the elevator. Up on the third floor, Janie pushes through the ICU door without hesitation. It’s dimly lit and quiet. Janie fends off the hallway dreams and, before she opens Henry’s door, goes over her plan in her mind.
She takes a deep breath and pushes open the door, closing it swiftly behind her as everything around her goes black, and then she’s slammed by the colors and the outrageous static once again.
The power of the dream forces Janie to her hands and knees. The attack on her senses makes gravity ten times stronger than normal. She sways inadvertently as if to avoid the giant block walls of burning color that swing toward her in 3-D. Mentally she’s trying to hear her own thoughts above the noise, and it’s incredibly difficult—it’s like she’s in a vortex of static.
Janie’s hands and feet quickly grow numb. Blindly, she turns to the right and crawls, aiming for the bathroom so that if she has to, she can get inside and close the door. As a flaming yellow block swings toward her, Janie lunges to avoid it and feels her head connect with the hospital room wall. Concentrate! she yells to herself. But the noise is overpowering. All she can do is slide forward on numb stumps, hoping she’s even moving at all, and waiting for a flash of something, anything that will explain some of the mystery of Henry.
Janie doesn’t know how much time goes by before she can’t continue moving.
It’s as if she’s fallen through ice, engulfed in frigid water. Numb, both body and mind. Even the noise and the colors are muted.
Things stop mattering.
She can’t feel herself flopping around wildly.
Doesn’t know she’s losing consciousness.
Doesn’t care anymore either. She just wants to give up, let the nightmare overtake her, engulf her, fill her brain and body with the endless clamor and sickening dazzle.
And it does.
Soon, everything goes black.
But then.
In Janie’s own unconsciousness, the picture of a madman, a hairy, screaming madman that is her own father, slowly appears from the darkness before her.
He reaches toward her, his fingers black and bloody, his eyes deranged, unblinking. Janie is paralyzed. Her father’s cold hands reach around her neck, squeezing tight, tighter, until Janie has no breath left. She’s unable to move, unable to think. Forced to let her own father kill her. As his grasp tightens further around Janie’s neck, Henry’s face turns sickly alabaster. He strains harder and begins to shake.
Janie is dying.
She has no fight left in her.
It’s over.
Just as she has given up, her father’s chalky face turns to glass and shatters into a dozen pieces.
His grip around Janie’s neck releases. His body disappears.
Raises herself up.
And there, instead of seeing her father in the glass,
She sees her own horrified, screaming face, reflected back at her.
Static once again.
For a very.
Very.
Long time.
Janie realizes that she might be stuck here. Forever.
2:19 a.m.
And then.
A flicker of life.
A flash of a woman’s figure in a dark gymnasium, a portrait of a man on a chair . . .
And a voice.
Distant. But clear. Distinct.
Familiar.
“Come back,” the woman says. Her voice is sweet and young.
She turns to face Janie. Steps into the light.
Standing on strong legs, her eyes clear and bright. Her fingers, not gnarled, but long and lovely. “Janie,” she says in earnest. “Janie, my dear, come back.”
Janie doesn’t know how to come back.
She is exhausted. Gone. Gone from this world and hovering somewhere no other living person could possibly be.
Except for Henry.
Janie’s mind is flooded with the new scene, a soft and quiet scene, of a man in a chair, and a woman, now standing in the light imploring Janie to come back. The woman walks over to Henry, stands beside him. Henry turns and looks at Janie. Blinks.
“Help me,” he says. “Please, please, Janie. Help me.”
Janie is terrified of him. Still, there is nothing she can do but help.
It is her gift.
Her curse.
She is unable to say no.
Compelled, Janie pulls herself to attention, to full awareness, scared to death that the horrible din and burning colors will return at any moment, dreading getting anywhere near this man who turns mad and strangles her. Wishing she could gather the strength to pull herself from this nightmare now, while she has the chance. But she cannot.