Finding Us

“Yeah,” He climbs back on the bed and rolls on his back with his arms behind his head. “Ava all cleaned up?”

I lie my head on his chest and run my fingers between each abs muscle, when I get down close to the button on his shorts his stomach constricts and defines his muscles even more. “Yeah, I had Rhea bring her down to Jeremy.” I lift my head and gaze into smoldering blue eyes. “Talk to me Knox. Tell me what’s going on with you.”

I feel his breath hitch for a second before letting out a loud sigh, “You don’t miss anything do you?”

I nudge him with my shoulder, “Not really.” I lie my head back down on his chest, afraid that he’s about to reject me. “What were you looking at when I walked in?”

Knox freezes.

When he doesn’t answer me, I slowly shift my head up so that I can just barely see him through my eyelashes. He has his eyes tightly squeezed shut and it looks like he’s in physical pain. I try to sit up, clearly he isn’t going to be answering me, but he wraps his fingers around my wrist.

“Don’t go.” Knox says with a shaky voice.

I pull my wrist away, clutch it to my chest and rub it with my other hand. He didn’t hurt me physically but emotionally he had. I know when something is bothering him. I just wish he would admit it when I ask. If he’s not ready to talk about it right now that’s fine but at least admit something is wrong.

“I’m just going to take a bath.” I whisper back softly.

I close the door to the bathroom but don’t shut it completely, hoping to give Knox a sign that I want him to come to me when he’s ready. I adjust the water to the perfect temperature and allow it to fill the tub while I strip off my sandy bikini and I pull the hair tie from my hair. Once the tub is filled a little way I dip my toes in, testing to make sure that the water is comfortable. I slip in and sigh in relief as the warm water washes over my slightly sun kissed skin. I rest my back and head against the tub and let my eyes close and just relax.

The door creaks open but I don’t open my eyes because I know who it is. I just lay there and wait for Knox to make a move. I hear rustling of clothes and then I feel a hand on my shoulder, I open my eyes to a na**d and sexy Knox standing before me.

“Sit up.”

I move up so that he can slip in behind me, when he’s settled he pulls me back against his chest and kisses the top of my head. Knox reaches for my hands and interlocks our fingers, resting them on my stomach.

“I was looking at a picture from my past.” Knox starts to say but I interrupt.

“Knox…”

“Shh, let me finish. That picture is the only one I have.” Knox sighs loudly. “There will never be another picture like that one. It hurts to look at it.” He groans and I hear the thump of his head hitting the tub. “I miss her Jasmine.” He says so low I barely heard him.

I rub my thumbs on the backs of his hands, “I’m sorry.”

“Me too.”

Knox and I are both lost in thought until I get a chill from the cooled water.

“Let’s get you washed up so we can grab something to eat before it’s all gone.” Knox says as he lets go of my hands and reaches for shampoo. I reach for it but he doesn’t let me have it. He opens the lid and pours some on his hand; I lean my head back so that he can wash my hair. When he’s done he piles it on top of my head and reaches for the bar of soap. The smell of Dove soap always brings back the good memories of being younger and not having a care in the world. Dove was always Marie’s favorite soap. Knox starts at my shoulders and then moves down my arms to my hands. He dips the soap in the water and then scrubs gently at my chest, rubbing the soap in circles around each breast and my ni**les pucker. Knox chuckles and I shiver. He washes my stomach and then slips the soap between my legs, he rubs up and down a few times before the soap slips from his fingers and he hits the sensitive bundle of nerves between my legs. He cups me, adding a little pressure to alleviate the ache, and then when I think he’s going to reach for the soap he slips a finger inside me.

“Knox,” I moan and try to keep my legs open for him.

“Hmm,” He kisses my earlobe and then gently bites it as he slips another finger inside me.

He starts pumping, long and slow at first and then as I start to wiggle around he pumps faster until my h*ps arch and I moan his name loudly.

“Jesus.” I pant as I comeback down for the bliss.

Knox chuckles and removes his fingers. “Feel better now?”

I nod, too exhausted to even talk from the amazing orgasm he just gave me. Now that I’ve settled a bit I feel his throbbing c**k against my back. I try to turn so that I can face him and help him with his problem but Knox reaches down between my legs again but grabs the soap this time and finishes washing my legs. When he’s decided that I’m clean he places the soap back in the holder and gently pushes me down so my head is in his lap so that he can wash the soap out of my hair. Once all the soap is washed out, we stand and turn the shower on to rinse our bodies and my hair of all the left over suds.

Knox rinses me first; when I’m clean I finally turn to face him. His eyes are darker than I’ve ever seen, almost a midnight blue. I reach up and cup the side of his face and take a step closer to him. I place a kiss to his kissable lips and let my hand trail from his cheek, down to neck, his chest. When I reach his stomach I slow just a little but continue down.

Knox rests his forehead against mine, eyes opened and staring intently at me. I feel like he wants to say something but he’s holding back.

I follow the valley of his V and down over his hard length. Knox hisses and his eyes squeeze shut. A sly grin slides on my face. Payback’s a bitch. Grabbing a hold of him, I let the water help me slide my hand down his shaft. Knox’s h*ps jerk forward, wanting, needing more.

“Jasmine,” he moans.

It doesn’t take Knox long to find his release. My strokes are tight and slow, I get to the head and loosen my grip just a little and as I go back down I tighten my grip harder. He pants, legs rigid and he’s sucking hard on my shoulder. I’m sure there is going to be a mark there but I don’t really care. I pick up my speed and a few minutes later Knox wraps his hand around mine as he releases himself on my stomach and it’s just as quickly washed away by the water.

“Damn, you’re gonna kill me.” He pants out.

Right back at you!

I almost told Jasmine about her. Almost. I wanted to but I couldn’t.