Elphame's Choice (Partholon #4)
Page 37Elphame stood cloaked within the shadows outside the Main Courtyard. The scene before her had a macabre, otherworldly feel. Torches burned brightly and the comforting sounds of people talking and finishing their evening meal drifted from the Great Hall mingling with the familiar splash of the fountain's ever-falling water. They were the noises of her castle at the end of a day. It would all be so normal if the scent of the oils she had used to anoint Brenna's body didn't still perfume her hands, and if guards were not positioned in the courtyard, standing vigilant watch over Lochlan.
Iron shackles attached to heavy chains cuffed Lochlan's wrists and ankles. The chains had been wrapped securely around the great central column of the castle. Lochlan sat at the column's base, leaning heavily against it. His eyes were closed. He was terribly bruised and battered. An arrow protruded from his left shoulder. Above the quill the muscle had been slashed and the laceration flapped open with an ugly heaviness. Blood coated the side of Lochlan's body. But the wound that drew Elphame's eyes and made her stomach tighten was the long tear that ran almost the length of his left wing. The undamaged wing was tucked snuggly against Lochlan's back, but the other one lay limp and partially opened, reminding Elphame of a dying bird.
Elphame drew several deep breaths, trying to ignore the overly sweet smell of the funeral oils. Her blood pounded fiercely in her temples. She wanted to rush to Lochlan and demand that they unchain him. If she had been anyone except The MacCallan she would have. She would rail at his guards that he had not killed Brenna - that he was not a demon. But she could not react as a distraught wife. She must deliver justice, not hysteria or tears. She could not save Lochlan. He must save himself. He must prove himself innocent of Brenna's death, or she would have to mete out punishment to him as she would to any other member of Clan MacCallan.
But as any other member of her clan, he was under her care and protection until his judgment was complete. As she had seen Brenna do so many times, she shifted the leather bag so that its strap rested comfortably over her shoulder and stepped into the flickering light of the torches. Her hooves clacked solidly against the smooth marble. The two armed guards bowed to her.
"Brendan, Duncan." She acknowledged them with a nod.
Lochlan lifted his head.
"I'll need one of you to go to the kitchen. Wynne will have some broth ready soon. Bring it here to me, along with a skin of strong red wine."
Brendan bowed again before leaving to follow her orders. She met Duncan's eyes. "I would speak to Lochlan privately."
Duncan hesitated only a moment before he retreated reluctantly across the courtyard. Elphame noted that he remained far enough away so that their conversation could not be overheard, but close enough so that he could return to her side quickly if he thought she was in danger.
"How badly are you hurt?" she asked Lochlan.
He did not answer at first, he only stared at her while he shook his head slowly from side to side, and Elphame wondered again if madness might have begun to claim him.
"I did not kill Brenna." He enunciated the words slowly and distinctly.
Instead of speaking, she crouched next to him and opened Brenna's bag searching through it for the ointment that her friend had used to heal her wounds and linen strips to bind the wicked-looking cut in his shoulder.
The chains rattled as Lochlan grabbed her wrist. Drawing his claymore, Duncan took a step toward them, but Elphame motioned him off.
"I must know if you believe me," he said.
Elphame looked into his gray eyes and found that she could not answer him.
"The spirit of the stones can tell you, Goddess." Danann's disembodied voice carried from the entrance to the courtyard.
Elphame shook off Lochlan's hold and stood to face the centaur. He, too, smelled of the anointing oils.
She had not known what oils to choose from Brenna's large selection; she had never before overseen the preparation of a body, and she knew that the care with which Danann had chosen the oils and led them in preparing Brenna was as indelibly imprinted into her memory as was the cool, slack feel of her friend's lifeless skin. The centaur's well-lined face reflected the strain of the past hours, but his eyes were still kind and wise. He approached her and studied Lochlan with a frank, open appraisal before returning his gaze to Elphame.
"Ask the spirit of the great column. Through it you will know the truth."
Elphame's eyes widened. The thought had not crossed her mind, but she realized that the Stonemaster was correct. She had within her the ability to tell infallibly whether Lochlan had any part in Brenna's death.
The chains clanked as Lochlan struggled to his feet. "What does the centaur mean?" he rasped painfully.
"He means that the spirit within the stone of this column and I are connected. Through it I can see within you and know whether you harmed Brenna or not."
Lochlan closed his eyes wearily, and for a moment Elphame thought that he might lose consciousness, but they blinked open. The sadness she saw within them washed over her with his words.
"You should not need the spirits of your castle to tell you that I could not commit such a crime."
"Should she not?" Danann broke in, speaking to Lochlan as if he were lecturing an errant schoolboy.
"Perhaps your lifemate should be expected to trust you implicitly, but your lifemate is also The MacCallan. She must be more discerning. Do not ever underestimate the depth of responsibility she carries within her blood."
As he listened to Danann's words, a change came over Lochlan's face. The sadness lifted and only the weariness remained.
"You do well to chide me, Master Centaur," Lochlan said. "I knew what she was when I pledged myself to her. I should expect no less of her." He looked at his Chieftain and wife. "Ask the spirits so that The MacCallan's mind may be at rest."
"I need to know if Lochlan is guilty of Brenna's death."
She felt the surge of heat and the molten connection as her spirit merged with that of the great column.
Like the exhaling of a long-held breath, part of her awareness flowed out through her hand, curled, and then poured from the stone into Lochlan.
He inhaled a breath sharply in surprise as he felt the warmth invade his battered body, but his eyes did not waver from Elphame.
"I did not kill Brenna." He repeated the words carefully.
And suddenly Elphame was shaken by bolts of emotion as she Felt the truth within Lochlan.
Shock...anger... despair! She knew his devastation at discovering what had been done to Brenna. And then she Felt the remembrance of her own call engulfing him. Resignation... sorrow... He had answered her call even though he understood that in doing so he would probably be embracing his doom.
Her heart had been right; he was not guilty of Brenna's death. He was only guilty of finding her. She wanted to weep and cheer. The MacCallan could do neither, but with her power there was one thing she could do.
"Forgive me for doubting." She mouthed the silent words before she bowed her head and concentrated on sending healing warmth from her own body, through the heart of her castle, and into her lifemate's wounded body.
She heard him gasp as her strength poured into him and through their connection she Felt the echo of his thoughts, There is nothing to forgive, my heart.
A strong hand grasped her shoulder and her head jerked up.
"Enough, Goddess," Danann said. "You may have need of your own strength soon."
Reluctantly, Elphame pulled her palm from the living stone. Her head buzzed strangely and her arms felt unnaturally heavy.
"Bring your Chieftain some wine!" the centaur barked at Duncan. "And warm water and linens so that we may care for Lochlan's wounds." When Duncan hesitated Danann spoke with gruff annoyance. "He can hardly move, man! I may be old, but I can certainly protect Elphame from someone who is half-dead."
"Go on," Elphame said faintly.
Frowning, Duncan hurried off toward the kitchen.
"Sit before you fall down," Danann told her.
Elphame did as she was told and sat on the marble floor not far from Lochlan. He smiled weakly at her and slid slowly down the column, joining her on the floor. He still looked terrible, but his breathing was easier and there was a hint of color in his cheeks.
"He did not kill Brenna," she said to the centaur, who was riffling through the Healer's bag.
He paused and glanced at her. "Of course he didn't," he said gruffly.
"You did not believe I killed her?" Lochlan blurted.
Danann raised one grizzled brow. "Our Elphame is not a fool to have chosen to handfast with a monster."
"Then why did you tell me to ask the spirit of the column?" Elphame said.
"You already know the answer to that, Goddess," Danann said.
But it was Lochlan who spoke before Elphame could. "For what is to come - she had to be certain, in more than her heart. She had to know the truth in her soul."
"You know the truth may not change things." The old centaur looked pointedly from Lochlan to Elphame.
The strength Lochlan had received from his lover seemed to drain from him and he slumped wearily against the column.
"I only know one thing for certain. I am sick to death of hiding, and come what may, Partholon will know we exist. What happens afterwards is in Epona's hands."
Duncan returned first, with a skin of wine thrown over his arm and carrying a small basin, a pitcher of water, and some clean cloth. Danann took the pitcher and cloths, and motioned for Duncan to give Elphame the wine before the guard retreated back to his spot beside the fountain.
"Drink deeply," Danann advised her.
She was happy to comply; her mouth felt incredibly dry. She drank the reviving liquid and felt some of her weakness recede along with the faint buzzing in her head. Then she joined Danann beside Lochlan.
"Drink deeply." She echoed the old centaur's words as she helped Lochlan hold the wineskin to his mouth. He drank and Elphame tried to assess his wounds.
"The arrow must come out," Danann said, mirroring her thoughts. "The shoulder wound should probably have been sewn closed, but too much time has passed now and I think the pain it would cost him would not be worth the benefit."
Elphame nodded hastily. Her stomach quivered at the thought of sewing Lochlan's skin together.
"Get his shirt off and clean him up as best you can. After that arrow comes out the hole it leaves will need cauterizing. I'll go to Brenna's tent to find the iron she used, and then have it heated," Danann said grimly, and squeezed her shoulder before he left them alone.
Lochlan was holding the wineskin on his own, allowing Elphame's hands to be freed to pour the water from the pitcher into the basin. She felt his eyes on her as she wetted one of the cloths.
"This was not how we intended to make my introduction to the clan."
"No," she said softly, thinking of Brenna's lifeless body. With fingers that felt clumsy, she began to unlace his blood-encrusted shirt. "Everything has gone so terribly wrong, Lochlan," she said as she worked the ties. His hand closed over hers and she raised her eyes to his.
"Not our love, my heart. Our love has not gone wrong. Remember that whatever happens I do not regret one instant of the time I have loved you."
"I've brought the broth, milady."
Brendan's voice broke between them and Elphame glanced up to see the man looking at their joined hands. Lochlan slowly took his hand from hers, though he stonily returned Brendan's stare.
"Give me your knife," Elphame said.
Though there was a clear question in his expression, Brendan complied and then watched as she cut the blood-covered shirt from Lochlan. She handed the knife back to the man, who was staring in obvious curiosity at Lochlan 's powerful chest and the enormous wings that grew from his back.
"Do you want to drink the broth now, or wait until we're done..." Elphame gestured nervously at the arrow that must be pulled from his body.
"Now," he said, touching her cheek gently in a quick caress. "From what the centaur said I believe I will have need of its healing strength."
Without looking at Brendan, Elphame held out her hand and the man silently handed her the steaming mug. Lochlan drank it quickly, and then nodded at her. Steeling herself against the pain she knew she had to be causing him, Elphame set to work cleaning her lifemate's wounds. Lochlan closed his eyes and leaned against the stone column. Every so often he would raise the wineskin to his lips with a hand that shook only slightly.
Danann's hooves announced his approach. He held a wicked-looking pair of shears in his hand. With much cracking of ancient knees, the centaur settled himself beside Lochlan.
"This is what we must do," he explained to the winged man. "I will cut it off here, just below the quill."
He pointed to the arrow. "1 will count three and pull it out. Then will come the uncomfortable part." The centaur's gaze shifted to the man standing nearby. "Brendan, the cauterizing iron is in the kitchen hearth.
When the arrow is out, fetch it quickly."
"That would be the uncomfortable part," Lochlan said wryly.
Danann smiled. "Not the fetching of it."
An unexpected chuckle shook Lochlan's shoulders and he winced at the pain. "Let's get on with it then, Master Centaur."
"Grasp the quill," Danann told Elphame.
Don't think of him as Lochlan, she ordered herself frantically as she took hold of the arrow's end. Think of him as a stranger you're trying to help. She clenched her teeth together, trying to forget that she had rested against that shoulder and tasted its sweat with her searching lips.
With a crack the shears snapped through the wooden shaft.
Elphame thought Lochlan fell rather than leaned forward. The torn wing lay across him, covering his back. Without looking at Danann, Elphame gently gathered the limp wing in her hands and lifted, then folded it so that the protruding end of the bloody arrowhead was exposed. The only sound Lochlan made was a pain-filled groan at the first touch of her hands on his wing.
One of the centaur's gnarled hands closed around the arrowhead, the other rested firmly against Lochlan's back.
"On three," he said. "One, two, three!"
The old Stonemaster's arm muscles bulged as he tore the arrow from Lochlan's body in one clean pull, then he pressed a cloth against the gaping hole, trying to stop the scarlet river that followed it.
"Quickly! Bring the iron," Elphame ordered Brendan, who was already turning toward the Great Hall.
Lochlan lay very still against the marble floor, his head hidden in the crook of his right arm.
Elphame stroked his hair, feeling the tremors that ran through his body. "It's almost over," she told him, trying to keep her voice from breaking.
In the space of just a few breaths, Brendan returned carrying a metal pole the length of a man's arm. The round end of it glowed with a sickening red light. Elphame barely noticed that he had been followed by several clan members, who stood watching in wary silence.
Danann motioned for Brendan to bring him the iron.
"Lochlan," the old centaur's voice was calm. "You must remain very still while I close the wound. Do you need to be held?" Danann asked him.
Lochlan turned his head so that he could look up at Elphame.
"Her touch will be enough."
He pulled his hand from under his body and offered it to her. Without hesitation Elphame clasped it within both of hers.
"Brace yourself," Danann said the instant before he plunged the glowing iron into Lochlan's bloody wound.
It was Elphame who cried aloud when Lochlan's body bowed in pain and the stench of burning flesh hovered like a toxic fog around them. Lochlan's eyes never left hers and he did not make a sound. When Danann finally took the burning iron away from his flesh and began salving the wound with balm, only then did Lochlan close his eyes and turn his head back into his arm. He did not release his hold on Elphame's hand.
"Elphame? I brought this for him."
Through vision blurred by tears she hadn't realized she had been shedding, Elphame looked up at Meara.
The housekeeper was holding a neatly folded blanket, which she lay on the cold marble next to Lochlan.
"Thank you," Elphame said.
When Meara turned away, another woman took her place.
"Wynne sent more broth. The stew is for you, my Lady." Kathryn, the new addition to the kitchen staff, bobbed a quick curtsey before she placed the tray which held a mug of broth and a fragrant bowl of stew near Elphame.
Then another woman, who Elphame recognized as one of the weavers, broke from the watching group and approached her. She was carrying a small woolen wrap in her arms. With a shy smile she draped it around her Chieftain's shoulders.
"Tis cool here at night, milady. Have a care for yer health." Her words rolled musically, placing her as one of the locals.
Unable to speak, Elphame smiled her thanks and her blurred gaze passed over her clan. Their expressions were somber, but she saw no anger or resentment amongst them, only the reflection of the concern the three women had shown.
"Yes, have a care for your health, milady," called a man Elphame recognized as Angus.
His words broke the awkward silence of the clan. Several of the men approached Elphame, speaking softly to her and gazing with open curiosity at the winged man who needed only the touch of their Chieftain to endure such an agonizing ordeal.