Dream Lake
Page 13“In high school,” he said, “I was the kind of as**ole who would have teased and bullied you.”
“I know.” After a moment, Zoë said, “You would have called me a dumb blonde.”
At the very least. He had been angry at the world. He’d hated all the things he couldn’t have. And he would have especially hated someone as gentle and beautiful as Zoë.
She took a deep breath before asking, “Is that how you think of me now?”
Although she’d just handed him the perfect way to put some distance between them, Alex couldn’t bring himself to use it. Instead he told her the truth. “No. I think you’re smart. I think you’re good at what you do.”
“Do you think I’m … attractive?” she asked hesitantly.
He was nearly drowning in the desire to demonstrate exactly how attractive he found her. “You’re sexy as hell. And if I thought you could handle my kind of trouble, we wouldn’t be standing here talking. By now I’d have dragged you to the nearest dark corner I could find, and—” He broke off abruptly.
Zoë gave him a look that was difficult to interpret. Eventually she asked, “What makes you sure I couldn’t handle you?”
She didn’t know what she was asking for, from a man who couldn’t remember what it was like to be innocent. Lightly gripping her hair, Alex forced her face close to his. The blond curls danced around his fingers and tickled the backs of his hands. “I’m a bastard in bed, Zoë,” he said quietly. “I’m selfish and mean as the devil. I have to have all the control. And I’m … not nice.”
Her eyes widened. “What do you mean?”
He wasn’t about to discuss his sexual preferences with her. “No, we’re not going there. All you need to know is that I don’t make love to women, I use them. To you, sex is about kindness, honesty, commitment … well, I don’t bring any of that to bed. If you’re as smart as I think you are, you’ll believe that.”
“I do,” Zoë said promptly.
Drawing his head back an inch, Alex stared at her. “Really?”
“Yes.” But after a long hesitation, Zoë’s gaze dropped and the corners of her mouth quirked. “No,” she admitted, “I really don’t.”
“Damn it, Zoë—” He broke off in frustration, all the more provoked because she was trying not to smile, as if she thought of him as some big pussycat trying to pose as a tiger. She was playing with fire. She wouldn’t begin to understand the depravity that had passed for his love life. He knew who he was, and he knew how to hurt people—God knew he’d done it often enough.
The hint of amusement flitting across her lips drove him crazy. Before he knew what he was doing, he crushed his mouth over hers, holding her head so she couldn’t jerk back. He expected resistance. He wanted to scare her off. That was how the lesson would go. But after the first innocent start of surprise, she went soft and easy against him, her fingers lacing into his hair, curving around his skull. Alex was mortified by the force of his own response. He could have no more broken her hold on him than he could have snapped a steel beam in two.
She tasted like lavender sugar. Sweet, dark-flowering kisses, opening in a way that focused all his senses on this one moment, this one blinding perception of pleasure.
Too late, he realized that she wasn’t the one playing with fire.
He was.
He reached down to gather her in, all the deep curves and persimmon-smooth skin and silky heat. The feel of her was so lush, so unlike his ex-wife’s spareness, that he kept adjusting his hold, trying to fit her more closely against him, and the voluptuous friction aroused him unbearably.
Once, when he was still a teen, he’d been bodysurfing on a trip to Westport with friends, and he’d timed a six-foot wave badly. He’d been tossed and turned like a load of laundry until he’d finally been deposited on the beach, so disoriented that for a few minutes he couldn’t remember his own name. He felt like that now, only this time he wanted to dive back in and never come up for air.
His hands went to the inward arc of her waist and moved blindly upward. Reaching the sides of her breasts, he encountered the edges of a bra with sturdy straps designed to support substantial curves. His fingertips followed the straps in restless strokes, up to the tops of her shoulders, back down again.
He felt her reaching awkwardly for his hands, trying to pull them to her. She wanted him to touch her. God help him, if he started, he wouldn’t be able to stop. But his will eroded in the rush of pure feeling, and resisting her was no more possible than stopping his own heart from beating. Zoë took his stiff wrist and shyly urged his hand to the front of her shirt. The backs of his fingers brushed against her breast, the tip jutting distinctly against the elastic webbing of the bra. For a second he couldn’t breathe. His hand opened to cup the luxurious weight, his thumb rubbing the peak in savoring circles, until she gasped against his lips.
Alex took his hand from her, having to secure his balance by gripping the edge of the sink behind her. His equilibrium was gone. It didn’t help that Zoë began to nuzzle into his neck with erotic delicacy, nibbling and kissing, the tugs of her lips siphoning up pleasure. His body was nothing but drive and sensation. He reached down to grip her bottom with both hands, pulling her high and tight. Zoë’s eyes opened as she felt the searing pressure, blatant even through the layers of their clothing. He urged her closer, letting her feel how much he wanted her, letting the hardest part of him slide with intimate exactness against the softest part of her. She quivered, a vibrant hum in her throat … and then she flinched with a cry that had nothing to do with pleasure.
They had both forgotten about the burn on her arm. She had accidently brushed it against his shoulder. It must have hurt like hell. The realization shocked Alex’s mind into clarity. He pulled back from her and carefully gripped her arm to look at it. The quarter-sized blotch on her arm was purple, the skin slick and puffy.
Zoë stared up at him, her cheeks fever-colored, her mouth kiss-bruised. Her hand went to the taut plane of his cheek, and he felt the vibration of her palm. She was shaking. Or maybe it was him.
She began to say something, but an unearthly yowl interrupted her.
“What the hell was that?” Alex asked hoarsely, infuriated to be pulled out of the erotic dream, his heart pounding in heavy blows.
They both looked to the source of the noise near their feet. Baleful green eyes stared out from a huge mass of white fur, a thick neck cinched by a glittering band of crystals.
“That’s Byron,” Zoë said. “My cat.”
It was an enormous, weird-looking cat, with a flat face and enough fur to create at least three more of itself.
“What does it want?” Alex asked, revolted.
Zoë bent to pet the cat. “Attention,” she said ruefully. “He gets jealous.”
Byron began to purr as she stroked him, the sound rivaling a Cessna single-prop engine.
“He can have your attention after I leave.” Alex reached over to shut off the water, and picked up the first-aid kit. Grateful for the distraction, he brought the kit to the table and sat down, gesturing to a nearby chair. “Sit there.”
Zoë obeyed, giving him a bemused glance.
Alex arranged her arm on the table with the burn facing upward. Finding a tube of antibiotic cream, he applied it in a thick layer, his head bent over the task. His hands weren’t steady.
Zoë reached down to pet the massive cat, which was pacing through and around the legs of her chair. “Alex,” she asked in a low voice, “are we going to—”
“No.”
He knew she wanted to talk about it. But denial was a skill that had been honed over generations of Nolans, and it was going to work just fine in this situation.
In the silence, Alex heard the ghost’s sardonic voice. “Is it safe to come back in now?”
Although Alex would have loved to give a scathing reply, he kept silent.
Zoë was befuddled. “You … you want to pretend that what just happened didn’t happen?”
“Why?”
Alex didn’t bother to soften the impatient edge of his tone. “Look, you and I don’t need to know each other any more than we already do. You’ve got nothing to gain and everything to lose. You need to find some decent guy to go out with—someone who’ll take it slow and talk about your feelings and all that sensitive crap. You need a nice guy. And that’s not me.”
“I’ll say,” the ghost chimed in.
“So we’re going to forget about this,” Alex continued. “No discussions, no repeat performances. If you want to find some other contractor for the remodel, I’ll totally understand. In fact—”
“No,” the ghost protested.
“I want you,” Zoë said, and blushed hard. “I mean, you’re the right person for the job.”
“You haven’t even seen the designs yet,” Alex said.
The ghost circled them. “You can’t quit. I need to spend time at that cottage.”
Shove it, Alex thought.
Scowling, the ghost folded his arms and went to lean against the pantry door.
Zoë picked up a few of the pages from the table, studying them.
Alex closed the first-aid kit. “That’s how the kitchen will look after the interior wall is taken out and replaced by an island.” He had added as much storage as possible, as well as a row of windows that let in abundant natural light.
“I love how open it is,” Zoë said. “And the island is perfect. Can people sit on this side?”
“Yes, you can line up about four bar stools.” Alex leaned closer to point to the next page. “Here’s the configuration on the other side—the microwave drawer, a spice drawer, and a swing-up mixer lift.”
“I’ve always wanted a mixer lift,” Zoë said wistfully. “But all of this looks expensive.”
“I listed stock cabinets in the specs—they’re a lot cheaper than custom. And I’ve got a supplier who deals in surplus building materials, so we can save on the countertops. If the wood flooring is salvageable, that’ll cut down on costs, too.”
Zoë picked up more pages from the table. “What’s this?” She held up a design of the second bedroom. “There’s a walk-in closet here, isn’t there?”
He nodded. “I included an option for converting that into a full bath.”
“A full bathroom in that little space?” Zoë asked.
“Yeah, it’s tight.” Alex reached over to find the design for the bathroom. He handed it to her. “No room for a cabinet. But I could put a recessed set of shelves in the wall for towels and supplies. I thought …” He hesitated. “I thought living so close with your grandmother, you’d probably like to have a little privacy instead of having to share the main bathroom with her.”
Zoë continued to look over the rendering. “It’s even better than I’d hoped for. How long would it take to get all of this done?”
A frown puckered her forehead. “My grandmother will leave the nursing facility in a month. I can afford to pay for her to stay an extra couple of weeks, but probably no more than that.”
“Could she stay at the inn?”
“It’s not set up for her. Too many stairs. And every time we can’t rent out a room, it’s a loss of income. Especially during the summer.”
Alex drummed his fingers lightly on the table, calculating. “I could delay the garage and get some of the subcontractors working simultaneously … in six weeks I could make the house livable. But most of the finish work—moldings, casings, paint, would still have to be done. Not to mention replacing the air-conditioning. Your grandmother probably wouldn’t take well to all the noise and activity.”
“She’ll be fine,” Zoë said. “As long as the kitchen and main bathroom are done, we’ll put up with anything.”
Alex gave her a skeptical glance.
“You don’t know my grandmother,” Zoë said. “She loves noise and activity. She used to be a reporter for the Bellingham Herald during the war, before she got married.”
“That’s cool,” Alex said, meaning it. “Back in those days, a woman who wrote for a newspaper was probably a …”
“Hot tomato,” the ghost said.
“… hot tomato,” Alex repeated, and then snapped his mouth shut, feeling like an idiot. He sent the ghost a discreet glare. Hot tomato—what did that even mean?
Zoë smiled quizzically at the old-fashioned phrase. “Yes, I think she was.”
The ghost told Alex, “Ask how her grandmother is.”
“I was going to,” Alex muttered.
Zoë looked up from the design. “Hmm?”
“I was going to ask,” Alex said, “about how your grandmother’s doing.”
“The therapy is helping. She’s tired of staying in the nursing facility, and she’s impatient to move out. She loves the island—she hasn’t lived here in a very long time.”
“She used to live in Friday Harbor?”
“Yes, the cottage is hers—it’s been in the family forever. But my grandmother actually grew up at that house on Rain-shadow Road. The one you’re helping Sam restore.” Seeing Alex’s interest, she continued, “The Stewarts—that’s her family—owned a fish-canning business on the island. But they sold the Rainshadow house a long time before I was born—I’d never set foot in there until I went to visit Lucy.”
Hearing an imprecation from the ghost, Alex glanced at him quickly.
The ghost looked stunned and worried and excited. “Alex,” he said, “it’s all connected. The grandmother, Rainshadow Road, the cottage. I’ve got to find out how I fit in.”