Crossed (Matched #2)

She believed in my father and went to his meetings. He walked out with her in the desert after the storms and kept her company while she found hollows filled with rain and painted with water. He wanted to make things—changes—that would last. She always understood that what she did would fade away.

When I see Cassia dancing without knowing she’s doing it—turning and turning in delight as she looks at the paintings and carvings in the cave—I understand why my parents both believed as they did.

It’s beautiful and it’s real, but our time together could be as fleeting as snow on the plateau. We can either try to change everything or just make the most of whatever time we have.

Chapter 26

CASSIA

Ky leaves one flashlight on so that we can see each other while we talk. When Eli and Indie fall asleep, and Ky and I are the only two left, he switches off the light to save it. The girls on the cave walls dance back into darkness and we are truly alone.

The air in the cave feels heavy between us.

“One night,” Ky says. In his voice, I hear the Hill. I hear the wind on the Hill, and the brush of branches against our sleeves, and the way he sounded when he first told me he loved me. We have stolen time from the Society before. We can do it again. It will not be as much as we want.

I close my eyes and wait.

But he doesn’t go on. “Come with me outside,” he says, and I feel his hand on mine. “We won’t go far.” I can’t see him; but I hear a complicated mix of emotion in his voice and feel it in the way he touches me. Love, concern, and something unusual, something bittersweet.

Outside, Ky and I walk down the path a little way. I lean back against the rock and he stands before me, reaching up to put his hand along my neck, under my hair and the collar of my coat. His hand feels rough, cut from carving and climbing, but his touch is gentle and warm. The night wind sings through the canyon and Ky’s body shields me from the cold.

“One night . . .” I prompt him again. “What’s the rest of the story?”

“It wasn’t a story,” Ky says softly. “I was about to ask you something.”

“What?” The two of us draw together under the sky, our breath white and our voices hushed.

“One night,” Ky says, “doesn’t seem like too much to ask.”

I don’t speak. He moves closer and I feel his cheek against mine and breathe in the scent of sage and pine, of old dust and fresh water and of him.

“For one night, can we just think of each other? Not the Society or the Rising or even our families?”

“No,” I say.

“No what?” He tangles one of his hands in my hair, the other draws me closer still.

“No, I don’t think we can,” I say. “And no, it isn’t too much to ask.”

Chapter 27

KY

I never named anything I’ve written before

no reason to

since

it would all have the same title anyway

—for you—

but I would call this one

one night

that night

when we let the world be only you

and only me

we stood on it while it spun

green and blue and red

the music ended

but we

were still

Chapter 28

CASSIA

When the sun comes into the Carving, we are already on the move again. The path is so narrow that we usually have to walk single file, but Ky stays near me, his hand on the small of my back, our fingers brushing and clinging every chance we get.

We have never had such a thing before—a whole night to talk, to kiss and hold on—and the thought and we never will again keeps coming back to me, will not stay buried where it should, even in the beautiful light of the Carving morning.

When the others woke, Ky told us what he thought our plan should be: get back to the township by evenfall and try to slip into one of the houses farthest from where he saw the light. Then we’ll keep watch. If there’s still only one light, we can try to approach in the morning. There are four of us and, Ky thinks, only one or two of them.

Of course, Eli is so young.

I glance back at him. He doesn’t notice. He walks on with his head down. Though I’ve seen him smile, I know the loss of Vick weighs heavily on both of them. “Eli wanted me to say the Tennyson poem over Vick,” Ky told me. “I couldn’t do it.”

In the lead, Indie shifts her pack and looks back at us to make sure we still follow. I wonder what would have happened to her if I had died. Would she have cried for me, or would she have gone through my things, taken what she needed, and moved on?

We steal into the township at dusk, Ky in the lead.

I didn’t look closely when we came through before, and now the homes intrigue me as we move quickly down the street. People must have built their own, each house different in some way from the one next to it. And they could walk into each other’s residences, cross each other’s thresholds whenever they wanted. The dirt paths speak of this; unlike the ones in the Borough, the paths here do not go straight from front door to sidewalk. They wind, they web, they interconnect. The people have not been gone long enough for their comings and goings to have been completely erased. I see them there in the dirt. I almost hear their echo in the canyon, the callings-out: hello, good-bye. How are you?

The four of us crowd inside a tiny weathered house with a watermarked door. “I don’t think anyone saw us,” Ky says.

I barely hear him. I’m staring at the pictures painted on the walls. The figures were painted with a different hand than the ones in the cave, but again they are beautiful. They have no wings on their backs. They do not look surprised at flight. Their eyes are not turned up to the sky, but instead look down toward the ground, as though they will keep that sight of earth as a memory for higher days.

But still I think I recognize them.

“Angels,” I say.

“Yes,” Ky says. “Some of the farmers still believed in them. In my father’s time, anyway.”

The dark falls a little deeper and the angels turn into shadows behind us. Then Ky sees it, in the small house across the way. He points out the light to us. “It’s in the same house as the night before.”

“I wonder what’s happening inside,” Eli says. “Who do you think is in there? A thief? Do you think they’re robbing the homes?”

“No,” Ky says. He glances over at me in the shadowy night. “I think they are home.”

Ky and I are both at the window at first light, watching, so we are the ones who see the man first.

He comes out of the house, alone, carrying something, and walks through the dust, along the path closer to us, down to a little stand of trees that I noticed when we first came in. Ky motions to all of us to be quiet. Indie and Eli go to the other window in the front of the house and look out, too. We all watch carefully over the edge of the windowsills.

The man stands tall and strong; he’s dark and tanned. He reminds me of Ky in some ways: his coloring, that quiet movement. But there’s a tiredness in him and he seems unaware of anything except what he carries, and in that moment I realize it’s a child.

Her dark hair streams over his arms and her dress is white. An Official color, but of course she’s no Official. The dress is lovely, as though she’s going to a Banquet, but she’s much too young.

And much too still.

I put my hand to my mouth.

Ky glances over at me and nods. His eyes are sad and weary and kind.

She’s dead.

I glance over at Eli. Is he all right? Then I remember that he’s seen much more death than this. Maybe he’s even seen a child dead before.

But I never have. Tears fill my eyes. Someone so young, so tiny. How?

The man puts her gently on the ground, in the dead grass under the trees. Something, a sound carried on the canyon wind, reaches our ears. Singing.

It takes a long time to bury someone.

While the man digs the hole, slowly and steadily, it begins to rain again. It’s not a heavy rain, but a sustained spatter of water against dirt and mud, and I wonder why he brought her out with him. Maybe he wanted her to have rain on her face, one last time.

Maybe he just didn’t want to be alone.

I can’t stand it anymore. “We have to go help him,” I whisper to Ky, but Ky shakes his head.

“No,” he says. “Not yet.”

The man climbs back out of the hole and walks over to the girl. But he doesn’t put her in the grave; he brings her near it and puts her body down.

And then I notice the blue lines all over his arms.

He reaches down and lifts up the girl’s arm.

He pulls out something. Blue. He marks it on her skin. The rain keeps washing it off and yet he keeps drawing, over and over and over. I can’t tell if he still sings. Finally the rain stops and the blue stays.

Eli’s not watching anymore. He sits with his back to the wall underneath his window and I crawl over across the floor to sit next to him, not wanting my movement to catch the eye of the man outside. I put my arm around Eli and he slides closer.

Indie and Ky keep watching.

So young, I keep thinking. I hear a thump, thump sound and for a moment I can’t tell if it is the beating of my heart or the sound of the dirt as it falls on the little girl in her grave.

“I’m going now,” Ky whispers finally. “The rest of you, wait here.”

I turn and look at him, surprised. I raise my head so I can see out the window again. The man has finished burying. He lifts a flat gray stone and puts it over the spot now filled in with dirt. I don’t hear singing. “No,” I whisper.

Ky looks at me, raises his eyebrows.

“You can’t,” I say. “Let’s wait until tomorrow. Look at what he’s had to do.”

Ky’s voice is gentle but firm. “We gave him all the time we could. We have to find out more now.”

“And he’s alone,” Indie says. “Vulnerable.”

I look at Ky, shocked, but he doesn’t discount what Indie says. “It’s the right time,” he says.

Before I can say more, he opens the door and leaves.

Chapter 29

KY

Do what you want,” the man calls out when I reach the edge of the graveyard. “It doesn’t matter. I am the last.”

If I hadn’t already known he was a farmer, his accent and the formality of his speech would have given him away. My father sometimes had a hint of their inflection in his voice when he came back from the canyons.

I told the others to stay behind but of course Indie didn’t listen. I hear her coming up behind me and hope that Cassia and Eli had the sense to stay in the house.

“Who are you?” the man asks.

Indie answers behind me. I don’t turn around. “Aberrations,” she says. “People the Society wants dead.”

“We came into the canyons to find the farmers because we thought you might help us,” I say.

“We’re done with that,” the man says. “Finished.”

Footsteps. Behind us. I want to turn around and call to Cassia and Eli to return to the house but I can’t turn my back on the man.

“So there are four of you,” he says. “Any more?”