Crazy Beautiful Love
Page 22“Jared’s right. It’s all of us or none of us.” Vincent’s voice was firm. “You don’t have to risk your life for us anymore, Logan.”
“What are you talking about?”
“We know everything you’ve done for us.” Vincent leaned towards me. “And we appreciate it. We’ve been selfish. It’s not fair to you. If we do this, it’s all of us. I won’t accept it any other way.”
“You won’t accept it?” I raised an eyebrow at him. I had never seen Vincent speak up like that before.
“I won’t accept it.” He grinned. “I’m second oldest and I’m usurping your command.”
“Really?”
“Really! So deal with it.”
“Okay, but we have to decide our roles.”
“Joey said we should start the training right away. We don’t have much time.”
“I really wish Joey wasn’t involved with this,” I groaned. “I know you guys think I’m overreacting, but he’s bad news.”
“We don’t have to deal with him after this.” Vincent made a face towards Jared and he shrugged.
“Joey’s cool, man, but, if it means that much to you, I won’t hang out with him as much after this.”
“What about Lucy?” Vincent laughed and gave Jared a teasing smile, and I looked over at Jared in surprise.
“You dating Lucy?”
“What? No, no, of course not.” Jared made a face and turned away from me, so I didn’t push the issue. There was no way I wanted him dating Lucy. That would make it that much harder to get Joey out of our lives. And if there was one thing I wanted by the end of everything, it was for Joey to be a distant memory.
“Fine, tell Joey that we will start the training as soon as his friend is ready. Also, I have a favor to ask you guys.”
“Uh huh?” Jared and Vincent looked at me curiously.
“We need to clean this place up.”
“Huh?” Jared made a face.
“We need to tidy up this house.” I took a deep breath. “I want to invite someone over.”
“What?” Jared’s jaw fell open.
“I said we need to tidy up. This place is a mess.”
“Uhm, I heard that part. I’m talking about the inviting someone over part.”
“What about it?”
“You’ve never invited anyone over. None of us have.”
“Who?” Jared stared at me through narrow eyes.
“Maddie.”
“What the fuck?” Jared’s face grew red.
Vincent looked at me in confusion. “Who’s Maddie?”
“He’s talking about, Maddison Wright, the mayor’s daughter.”
“The mayor’s daughter?” Vincent’s eyes grew wide. “What?”
“Exactly.” Jared turned towards me again. “What are you thinking, Logan? What is Dad going to say if you bring her over here?”
“I don’t care what he has to say.” My voice was serious and I stood up. “She wants to get to know you both, and I think it’s a good idea.”
“What the fuck?” Jared exclaimed again and gave me a crazy look. “Are you f**king kidding me? Not only are you not getting her father back, but you’re dating her?”
“She isn’t responsible for what her father did.” I spoke slowly, understanding why he was upset but wanting him to understand why I liked her.
“We’re not responsible for what happened to our father, but we still got screwed. Is this a f**king joke? You’re going to date the f**king mayor’s daughter. The man who basically ruined our lives. He f**king turned Dad into an alcoholic and he killed our mother. And we can’t even afford to pay the f**king rent. Do you hear me, Logan? He f**ked up our lives and now … now you have the opportunity to exact revenge on him for all this shit, and you decide to date his daughter. And no, not to get the best revenge ever. But because you like her.”
“I never said I liked her.”
“So you just want her to come over because …?” Jared rolled his eyes. “And why do we need to get to know her? This sounds like a bad idea.”
“She’s not like her dad.”
“How do you know?” Jared jumped up as well. “You barely know her. Dude, she was obsessed with you as a teenager and now she is having a summer of fun with you. Do you really think this could become something serious?”
“Stop it, Jared.” Vincent raised his voice.
“You are not taking his side.” Jared shook his head in disgust.
“I’m not taking anyone’s side. I’m just saying stop it.” Vincent ran his hands through his hair and looked thoughtful. “We need to support Logan. I’m sure he knows what he’s doing.”
“Thanks.” I gave him a grateful smile and swallowed hard. I looked away and my brain felt like it was about to explode. The problem was I really didn’t know what I was doing. I felt like I was spinning out of control. Everything just felt crazy, and it was all changing so fast. An image of Maddie’s sweet smile flashed in my mind, and I felt my insides melt as I thought about her. I wasn’t even sure when I had decided that she should meet Vincent and get to know Jared better. But I knew that I needed to give her something to show that I was serious about trying to create something special between us. I wasn’t even really sure what we could create. How could her family ever accept me? How could I ever explain to my father that I was dating the daughter of the man who betrayed him? And what if all along the story my father had told wasn’t exactly true? Why hadn’t he told me that Mom had dated the mayor first? He had always said that the mayor had tried to date her but she had chosen Dad and been happy with him. Had she really dated the mayor first? Had Dad stolen her from him? And had that been why the mayor had set him up? Had it been some sort of sick revenge that had gone out of control? All of a sudden, I felt overwhelmed and dizzy. Too many things were coming up that didn’t make sense or fit in with the life I had made for myself.
“Look, guys, I know how hard this must be for you. And Jared, I know you hoped that I would use Maddie’s liking me to exact some sort of revenge on her father for what he did to Dad, but that’s not going to happen. I am not going to do anything to her. I like her a lot, and she’s a good person. And I want you both to get to know her. I want you both to see the woman that I see. Please give her a chance.”
“Fuck giving her a chance.” Jared turned away from me. “If I have to take matters into my own hands, I will.”
“Leave her alone, Jared.” My voice held a warning tone.
“Or what?” Jared scoffed. “What will you do?”
“You don’t want to know.” I grabbed his arm and looked down into his face. “Do not do anything to her or I will f**k you up.”
“Guys.” Vincent jumped up and stood between us. “Come on. We can’t afford to get upset with each other right now. Not when we are about to do the biggest job of our lives.”
“Whatever.” Jared glared at me. “I can separate the two. I just didn’t expect for Logan to betray us like this.”
“Stop being so overdramatic, Jared.” I glared back at him. “Fucking give Maddie a chance. Do you really think I haven’t thought this through? Do you really think I would risk everything if she wasn’t someone special?”
“Who knows?” He shrugged. “She’s pretty, maybe she gave it up and she got you hooked.”
“Shut the f**k up.” I swung out to hit him and Vincent grabbed my fist.
“Come on, guys.”
“You’re not going to talk about her like that and not expect me to thump your sorry ass.” I glared at Jared and he looked at me contemplatively.
“You’re lucky you’re my brother.” He shook his head. “I would have f**ked you up so badly.”
“Really? You would have f**ked me up?” I scoffed back at him.
“Yeah, I would have f**ked you up.” He laughed, and I laughed as well, as the tension in the room drifted away slightly.
“So, we all down to clean?”
“I guess.” Vincent groaned. “When is she coming over?”
“I don’t know yet.” I looked at them with an embarrassed smile. “We kind of had an argument when she left, so I’m going to let her cool down and when she calls me I’ll invite her over.”
“It’s already rocky, and you want us to meet her?” Jared shook his head in amazement. “This is going to be so ironic if she breaks your heart.”
“Jared.” Vincent looked at him in admonishment.
“Let’s be real, it would be kind of crazy if she ends up breaking his heart. Talk about some sort of f**king poetic justice, right?” Jared gave me a rueful smile. “I mean, I hope it doesn’t happen, but I just honestly can’t see this going well.”
“Let me worry about that.” I stretched. “Anyways, I gotta go to bed. Talk to Joey, and let me know what’s going on. We can start the cleaning in the morning.”
“And can we get some food?” Vincent’s voice was soft, and I nearly cursed myself. I had already forgotten we didn’t have any food.
“Look, here’s $400.” I put the cash on the table. “It’s all we got for the car, don’t ask. We need to make it last.”
“Soon we’ll have the table filled with cash.” Jared grinned and I smiled weakly, trying to ignore the gnawing feeling in my stomach.
“Yeah.” I nodded. “Night, guys.”
“Night, bro.” Vincent sat back down and opened up his textbook. I looked over to Jared, who was staring at me with a slightly apologetic expression in his eyes.
“Night, Logan.” He offered me a peace smile and I walked back to him and gave him a quick hug.
“I know you got my back bro, it’s okay,” I whispered into his ear before walking out of the room. I tried to hurry past the living room, but I wasn’t fast enough.
“What’s up, Dad?” I stood at the door and avoided eye contact with him. I didn’t want to look into his vacant bloodshot eyes tonight. I didn’t want to talk about Mom or hear stories about his life. Or be shouted at or questioned. I just couldn’t deal with it.
“I was just watching this movie, and the actress, she looked like your mom.”
“Yeah?” I nodded and looked at the TV screen. He was watching some old movie on AMC.
“She had long blonde hair like your mom, though she wasn’t as beautiful.”
“Okay.”
“Your mom was the most beautiful woman in the world.” His voice cracked and I finally looked over at him. He was lying down on the couch and there were tears streaming out of his eyes.
“She was beautiful.”
“Why did she have to die?” He looked up at me with a pained expression. “She promised me we would grow old together. She promised me she would stand with me through thick and thin, good and bad. But she lied.”
“She didn’t lie, Dad.” I ran my hands through my hair. “She died.”
“It was my fault.” He sat up, and reached to grab an empty beer can from the pile of cans at his feet.
“It wasn’t your fault.” I sighed. “She had cancer.”
“Have you ever been in love, son?” He looked at me searchingly.
“No.”
“When you’re in love, that person becomes a part of you. What happens to them, happens to you, and you do everything you can to protect them.” He crushed the beer can in his hand. “And I didn’t protect her.”
“It wasn’t your fault, Dad.”
“I wasn’t the man for her.” He shook his head. “Sometimes when you love someone, you have to know when to let go. Sometimes no matter how much you love someone, you have to let go, because even your best person is not the best person for them.”
“She loved you, Dad.” I tried to comfort him, but my mind immediately went to Maddie. She liked me a lot, and I liked her. I really liked her, more than I was willing to admit. And a part of me wondered if I was just fooling myself. Could any of this ever work? Even if we made the million dollars, I’d still be a Martelli and a thief. And she would be Maddie: beautiful, intelligent, wonderful, caring Maddie. I wasn’t sure if I would ever be able to give her the life that she deserved. The life that I wanted for her.
“But where did that get her?”
“It got her three children.”
“She wanted to leave me.” He threw the crushed can at the TV. “She wanted to leave me and take you boys.”
“I know.”
“I told her she would have to kill me first.” He picked up another can from the ground. “Turns out, it was she who died.” He started sobbing. “What did I do, Logan? Where did I go wrong? I sit back and look at my life, and I don’t understand. Where did I go wrong? How did this become my life?”
“I don’t know.” I bit my lip as I stared at him. But in my mind all I could think was, it was the mayor, the mayor did this to you, Dad. And a part of me broke all over again. How could we ever get through this?