Chasing Imperfection (Chasing 2)

I grinned, “I did, but not anymore. I ran a hot bath.”

He pulled me to his lap and kissed my forehead. His fingers caressed my cheek as he handed me his cup of coffee and we shared it.

We never shared coffee, ever. This is weird…but nice?

“Food’s ready. Let’s transfer everything on the table lads.” Both men swiftly did their tasks. Blake made me another cup of coffee after I finished his and placed it next to my plate with a glass of orange juice. I graciously thanked him and he sat next to me. Heck, what is going on?

What happens now? I weighed my confusing thoughts. Well, what do you want to happen? Uh nothing…it was just sex, wasn’t it?

There was a knock on the door. Toby left the table and went to go answer the door and meet the intruder.

“Sienna—Kyle’s here.” Toby called out.

“You’ve got to be shitting me, do you want me to shoo him out?” Luce asked eyeing me and Blake. Luce was obviously panicked.

“You invited him over, after last night?” Blake’s dark biting voice made me tense. Oh, boy. He’s back to being angry again.

“I didn’t—but we’ve been spending breakfast together most mornings—I guess he thought—” I trailed off when Kyle came to view with a puzzled looking Toby.

“I brought you your coffee,” he gestured with the Starbucks in his hand.

“Thank you—” getting up from my seat and went to go get it.

“Join us for breakfast Kyle. We have enough to go around.” Luce offered politely.

Kyle sat on the corner side of me. “I didn’t know everyone was here or I would’ve called. It’s usually just me and Si. I didn’t want to interrupt.”

“You weren’t…we’re all going to head out to see Chad anyhow.” I reassured him.

We all started eating but the tension was thick. “Are we still leaving as scheduled to Marbella or wait until we hear more of Chad’s condition?” Toby asked in between bites of bacon.

“We’ll wait until tomorrow. Chad needs us here for awhile and I promised Camilla that I’ll take her out for lunch.”

Lucy dropped her fork, “The Camilla Clayworth? Your Camilla Clayworth?”

“The very one,” he confirmed smoothly.

This is so messed up. But I had no right to be angry when I invited Kyle to join us to eat knowing quite fully that Blake would be infuriated. I couldn’t possibly boot Kyle out the door. The man’s been so good to me, I can’t do that. I’m not heartless.

Breathe, just breathe. You can confront him later.

Toby and Blake’s phones kept ringing and they were engrossed with whatever business it was they were handling. Luce was thinking deeply. I knew what she was thinking about. She was probably asking the same questions as I was. If I was having monkey sex with Blake last night, why am I with Kyle and why is Blake planning a date with his ex-fiancé?

I stared at the coffee mug and the glass of orange juice he planted in front of me before Kyle interrupted. He was actually being sweet all morning. I suppose that was one last shebang before breaking bread with his “very one” Lady Clayworth.

After breakfast, Kyle decided to leave. I guessed he felt he was intruding or something. “I’ll be back…I just walk him out,” I called out to Lucy and she nodded sadly.

Once out the door, I took a lungful of air. “That bad huh?” Kyle looked amused.

“Just weird is all.” He pulled me close to him and kissed my hair as we walked towards the elevator. He held me close as we rode all the way down to the main lobby. He turned me around and faced me squarely.

“Hey—I was thinking, can take you on a real date soon? Just you and me.”

“It’s always you and me, Kyle—what’s with the date?” He smiled boyishly as his eyes danced.

“As I said just you and me, no other people around, no work commitments, no one bother us. Save me a weekend? It’s a surprise.”

“Surprise huh…” I lightly punched him in the arm. “What is wrong with you? You totally know me well enough that I hate surprises Matthews!”

“I know baby, but this time I’ll make sure you love it.”

“Better be good, this surprise or it’ll cost you dearest.” He pulled me close and connected our noses. “It’s going to be better than good. Promise.”

“I’ll let you know when I can. I have to see how Chad’s going to be then I can tell you the exact date.” I kissed his cheek and untangled myself from him.

“Thanks babe. I’ll call you later on. I love you.” He flashed me another great smile before exiting the elevator.

My heart thudded loudly and I’m having trouble breathing. I imagine going back upstairs. Toby and Blake look downright mad.

Let’s get this show on the road, shall we?

Upon entering the apartment, Luce was nowhere in sight and Toby was in the living room on his laptop, phone in his ear. I went to my bedroom and found Blake sitting on the rumpled bed. I closed the door softly and tensely sat next to him. What happens now?

“I guess this is really the end, Sienna,” he whispered toying with his phone.

“What—what do you mean?”

“It means I’m done. I’m done obsessing about you. I’m just….done.”

“Oh.” It was all I could muster. He’s moving on….really moving on.

“Are you going to be with Camilla, Blake?” I waited for him to answer and while I waited, all I could hear was my heart breaking again. I stared at his neck. My bites from last night left red marks on his neck. Unknowingly, my finger traced them. His warm skin tingled against the tip of my finger.

He turned around and faced me, trying to search something in my eyes but I don’t know what. “It was all sex to you wasn’t it?”

I shook my head, “No. It wasn’t just all about sex.”

His eyes thundered, “Don’t lie to me! We both know it was. You used me to get over Kyle. Just come clean with it.”

Did I really do that? Use him to get over Kyle? Did I?

I honestly don’t know. Everything happened so fast, I remembered being consumed by Blake every waking second after I got back from LA. I probably used him one way or the other—I mean who wouldn’t want to be distracted with a man who looked like Blake?

“I’m sorry you felt that way. We happened so quickly—I didn’t understand what was going on but I knew I wanted you. You made my body sing and it was addictive.”