Cashel Byron's Profession
Page 165"Yes; I'm fond of you in a sort of way."
"Well, then," he said, uneasily, "won't you marry me? I'm not such a
fool as you think; and you'll like me better after a while."
Lydia became very pale. "Have you considered," she said, "that
henceforth you will be an idle man, and that I shall always be a
busy woman, preoccupied with the work that may seem very dull to
you?"
"I won't be idle. There's lots of things I can do besides boxing.
We'll get on together, never fear. People that are fond of one
another never have any difficulty; and people that hate each other
never have any comfort. I'll be on the lookout to make you happy.
expect you to give up your whole life to me. Why should I? There's
reason in everything. So long as you are mine, and nobody else's,
I'll be content. And I'll be yours and nobody else's. What's the use
of supposing half a dozen accidents that may never happen? Let's
sign reasonable articles, and then take our chance. You have too
much good-nature ever to be nasty."
"It would be a hard bargain," she said, doubtfully; "for you would
have to give up your occupation; and I should give up nothing but my
unfruitful liberty."
"I will swear never to fight again; and you needn't swear anything.
"Easy for me, yes. But for you?"
"Never mind me. You do whatever you like; and I'll do whatever you
like. You have a conscience; so I know that whatever you like will
be the best thing. I have the most science; but you have the most
sense. Come!"
Lydia looked around, as if for a means of escape. Cashel waited
anxiously. There was a long pause.
"It can't be," he said, pathetically, "that you are afraid of me
because I was a prize-fighter."
"Afraid of you! No: I am afraid of myself; afraid of the future;
I brought about this meeting between you and your mother I
determined to marry you if you asked me again."
She stood up, quietly, and waited. The rough hardihood of the ring
fell from him like a garment: he blushed deeply, and did not know
what to do. Nor did she; but without willing it she came a step
closer to him, and turned up her face towards his. He, nearly blind
with confusion, put his arms about her and kissed her. Suddenly she
broke loose from his arms, seized the lapels of his coat tightly in
her hands, and leaned back until she nearly hung from him with all
her weight.