Camille (La Dame aux Camilias)
Page 25I found Armand in bed. On seeing me he held out a burning hand. "You
are feverish," I said to him. "It is nothing, the fatigue of a rapid
journey; that is all." "You have been to see Marguerite's sister?" "Yes;
who told you?" "I knew it. Did you get what you wanted?"
"Yes; but who told you of my journey, and of my reason for taking it?"
"The gardener of the cemetery."
"You have seen the tomb?"
I scarcely dared reply, for the tone in which the words were spoken
proved to me that the speaker was still possessed by the emotion which
I had witnessed before, and that every time his thoughts or speech
travelled back to that mournful subject emotion would still, for a long
nod of the head.
"He has looked after it well?" continued Armand. Two big tears rolled
down the cheeks of the sick man, and he turned away his head to hide
them from me. I pretended not to see them, and tried to change the
conversation. "You have been away three weeks," I said.
Armand passed his hand across his eyes and replied, "Exactly three
weeks."
"You had a long journey."
"Oh, I was not travelling all the time. I was ill for a fortnight or I
should have returned long ago; but I had scarcely got there when I took
"And you started to come back before you were really well?"
"If I had remained in the place for another week, I should have died
there."
"Well, now you are back again, you must take care of yourself; your
friends will come and look after you; myself, first of all, if you will
allow me."
"I shall get up in a couple of hours."
"It would be very unwise."
"I must."
"What have you to do in such a great hurry?"
"Why do you not get one of your friends to see after the matter? It is
likely to make you worse than you are now."
"It is my only chance of getting better. I must see her. Ever since I
heard of her death, especially since I saw her grave, I have not been
able to sleep. I can not realize that this woman, so young and so
beautiful when I left her, is really dead. I must convince myself of it.
I must see what God has done with a being that I have loved so much,
and perhaps the horror of the sight will cure me of my despair. Will you
accompany me, if it won't be troubling you too much?"