Abandon
Page 10“Are you ready for Santa Claus?” Gloria said. “I hear he’s on his way to Abandon this hour.” Harriet glanced at her mother, as if to confirm the validity of the claim. Tears slid down Bessie McCabe’s face. “Bessie?” Gloria whispered. “What is it? Are you poorly?”
Barely twenty, Bessie’s pink cotton work dress was her best, stained and torn across the front from countless trips to the woodpile, hardly warm enough for a Rocky Mountain winter. Bessie had come from Tennessee ten months ago to join her husband, found him quite changed from the fifteen-year-old boy she’d married. She carried the dull burn of poverty in her eyes, and the stress of living this high in the dead of winter, with a man losing his mind, was causing her straw-colored hair to fall out in clumps.
“It’s Billy,” Bessie whispered, covering her mouth with her hand to mask rotten teeth.
Gloria reached across the table and held Bessie’s hand. “Where is he?”
“Where you reckon?” Bessie’s voice broke on the last word.
“With Mr. Wallace?”
“Sometimes, I suspect they go to the cribs.”
“Mr. McCabe loves you,” Gloria said, then felt a pinch under the table.
She turned and met her husband’s disapproving eyes.
“So, Mrs. McCabe,” Ezekiel said, “how’s Mr. McCabe finding his job at the mine?”
“Still just a mucker, but him and Mr. Wallace been dirt washin on Billy’s day off. Lookin for someone to grubstake ’em.”
“Well, here’s hoping he sees some color in his pan.” He raised his glass of water, and when he’d taken a sip, turned his attention to the little girl. As he quizzed Harriet on her studies, Gloria nibbled on a piece of corn bread and stole glances at her husband. She was still wildly in love with him, this solid, gorgeous man with a thick mustache, long sideburns, and the most ardent eyes she’d ever seen, especially when in a state of passion—anger or otherwise—as if there were lava at his core. She’d convinced him to wear his four-button sack coat for the occasion, an outfit he despised, and which, in his words, made him look like “a feathered-out got-damn banker.”
At length, Gloria’s attention drifted away from their table, and she picked out pieces of other conversations about towns that were booming, towns that were busting. As she eavesdropped, she noticed the table closest to the musicians’ platform. Ten people occupied one side, but at the far end, a woman ate by herself, completely ignored. She estimated the woman to be in her mid-forties, and even from across the room, Gloria could tell that she’d been striking years ago. Now she just looked tired, ragged out in a burgundy bustle ball dress with white lace at the ends of the sleeves and intricate beading of a style fashionable in the seventies.
“If you don’t care what all these hypocrites think, I sure don’t.” As Gloria set her food on the table and pulled out the chair, she couldn’t help but note the thrill of hearing a woman speak her true mind again.
In proximity, Gloria saw that the woman was even more striking but even more ruined. It broke her heart. She thought of her mother, what she might have become had the syphilis not claimed her. “How are you likin the—”
“I don’t do pity too well. What possessed you to come over here?”
“I seen you around.”
“So’ve half the men in this room. And they feign outrage that I dare partake of this feast in their presence, laughing up their sleeves. You know I used to be loved in this town? Like royalty.”
“Look, I just saw you were alone.”
“Well, you done your good deed, so why don’t you head back over—” Rosalyn stopped herself, reached out, touched the long blanched scar under Gloria’s bottom lip. “Where’d you work, honey?”
Gloria flushed, took a sip of water. “I don’t . . . anymore.”
“I said when you did.”
“Leadville.”
Rosalyn smiled. “Hell of a place. You’re stunning. Bet the men loved you. What happened to your chin?”
“I had a customer who went insane. Thought we were married, and that I was cheatin on him.”
“This town’s in high water,” Gloria said. “Don’t mind my asking, why’ve you stayed? Thought you might’ve gone to Cripple Creek.”
Rosalyn smiled, wisdom and a lifetime of buried rage in her eyes. “Been a whore all my life. I’ll finish out in Abandon and, when it goes, take what money I got, go somewhere where nobody knows me. Where it don’t snow. Buy a house. Tend a garden.”
“Marriage?”
“I’m afraid man’s a species that’s been ruined for me.”
Gloria sliced through a piece of roast.
“How’d you become so respectable?” Rosalyn asked.
“Fell in love with a good man.”
“Not many a those left, are there?”
Now they Black Hawk waltzed, the fiddlers sawing away, the clack of high-top lace-ups and stovepipe boots slamming the floorboards. Looking over her husband’s shoulder, Gloria saw Rosalyn sitting by herself in a rocking chair beside the stove.
“It’s shameful,” she said to him.
“You know who that woman is?” Ezekiel spoke into his wife’s ear.
“Wipe that feature off your face. She’s a human being.”
“Would you have people treat me like I didn’t exist?”
They bumped into the Ilgs. “Excuse us, Sawbones.”
“Merry Christmas, Sheriff. Look at you in full war paint. Ma’am.” The doctor doffed his bowler.
When they’d broken from the crowd, Ezekiel said, “That woman ain’t my concern.”
“Is decent human behavior? You’re gonna dance with her.”
“Damn if I will.”
“Zeke!”
He glanced over her shoulder, whispered, “God bless that man.”
Gloria turned, saw Rosalyn rise to accept the hand of Stephen Cole. Soon the preacher and the whore were stomping together.
NINE
Ezekiel and Gloria walked down the plank sidewalk. It had been shoveled that morning, but a foot and a half of powder had fallen since then. Gloria tucked her gloved hands under the wool of her hooded cape. Aside from the ruckus of the dance hall, Abandon stood in that kind of mad silence that set in during the worst of blizzards. There appeared to be no one else out, and the snow fell so hard, they could see only the nearest streetlamp. Beyond lay only faint suggestions of lantern light.