A Wallflower Christmas

Lillian called to her immediately. “Miss Appleton, do come forward. I want to introduce you to my husband.”

Repressing a heavy sigh, Hannah pushed back the locks that dangled over her face and came forward.

“Westcliff,” Lillian said to her husband. “This is Lady Natalie’s companion, Miss Hannah Appleton.”

Hannah bowed and glanced apprehensively at the earl. His features were dark and austere, perhaps a bit forbidding. But as his gaze rested on her face, she saw that his eyes were kind. He spoke in a gravel-in-velvet voice that fell pleasantly on her ears. “Welcome, Miss Appleton.”

“Thank you, my lord,” she said. “And many thanks for allowing me to spend the holiday here.”

“The countess enjoyed your company at tea last week,” Westcliff replied, smiling briefly at Lillian. “Anyone who pleases her also pleases me.” The smile transformed him, warming his face.

Lillian spoke to her husband with breezy casualness, as if he were a mere mortal man instead of England’s most distinguished peer. “Westcliff, I think you will want to talk to Miss Appleton about her work with Mr. Samuel Clark.” She glanced at Hannah as she added, “The earl has read some of his writings, and quite enjoyed them.”

“Oh, I do not work with Mr. Clark,” Hannah said hastily, “but rather for him, in a secretarial capacity.” She gave the earl a cautious smile. “I am a bit surprised that you would have read anything by Mr. Clark, my lord.”

“I am acquainted with many progressive theorists of London,” Westcliff said. “What is Mr. Clark working on now?”

“Currently he is writing a speculative book on what natural laws might govern the development of the human mind.”

“I would like to hear more about that during supper.”

“Yes, my lord.”

Lillian proceeded to introduce Hannah to her parents, who responded with pleasant nods. It was clear, however, that they had already dismissed Hannah as a person of no consequence.

“Rafe,” the countess suggested to her brother, “perhaps you might take Lady Blandford and Lady Natalie on a walk round the house before supper.”

“Oh, yes,” Natalie said at once. “May we, Mama?”

“That sounds lovely,” Lady Blandford said.

Bowman smiled at them both. “It would be my pleasure.” He turned to Hannah. “Will you come also, Miss Appleton?”

“No,” she said quickly, and then realized her refusal had been a shade too forceful. She softened her tone. “I will tour the manor later, thank you.”

His gaze swept over her and returned to her face. “My services may not be available then.”

She stiffened at the feather-soft jeer in his voice, but she couldn’t seem to break their shared gaze. In the warm parlor light, his eyes held glints of gold and cinnamon-brown. “Then somehow I will have to make do without you, Mr. Bowman,” she replied tartly, and he grinned.

“YOU DIDN’T TELL ME THAT MR. BOWMAN WAS SO HANDSOME,” Natalie said after supper. The hour was late, and the long journey from London, followed by a lengthy repast, had left both girls exhausted. They had retired to their room while the company downstairs lingered over tea and port.

Although the menu had been exquisite, featuring dishes such as roasted capon stuffed with truffles, and herb-crusted standing ribs of beef, supper had been an uncomfortable affair for Hannah. She was well aware of her own disheveled appearance, having found barely enough time to wash and change into a fresh gown before she’d had to dash to the dining hall. To her dismay, Lord Westcliff had persisted in asking her questions about Samuel Clark’s work, which had drawn more unwanted attention to her. And all the while Rafe Bowman had kept glancing at her with a kind of audacious, unsettling interest that she could only interpret as mockery.

Forcing her thoughts back to the present, Hannah watched as Natalie sat before the vanity and pulled the combs and pins from her hair. “I suppose Mr. Bowman could be considered attractive,” Hannah said reluctantly. “If one likes that sort of man.”

“You mean the tall, dark-haired, dazzling sort?”

“He’s not dazzling,” Hannah protested.

Natalie laughed. “Mr. Bowman is one of the most splendidly formed men I have ever encountered. What flaw could you possibly find in his appearance?”

“His posture,” Hannah muttered.

“What about it?”

“He slouches.”

“He’s an American. They all slouch. The weight of their wallets drags them over.”

Hannah couldn’t prevent a laugh. “Natalie, are you more attracted by the man himself or the size of his wallet?”

“He has many personal attractions, to be sure. A full head of hair…those lovely dark eyes…not to mention the impressive physique.” Natalie picked up a brush and drew it slowly through her hair. “But I wouldn’t want him if he was poor.”

“Is there any man you would want if he was poor?” Hannah asked.

“Well, if I had to be poor, I’d rather be married to a peer. That’s far better than being a nobody.”

“I doubt Mr. Bowman will ever be poor,” Hannah said. “He seems to have acquitted himself quite well in his financial dealings. He is a successful man, though I fear not an honorable one.”

“Oh, he’s a rascal, to be sure,” Natalie agreed with a light laugh.

Tensing, Hannah met her cousin’s gaze in the mirror. “Why do you say that? Has he said or done anything inappropriate?”

“No, and I don’t expect him to, with the betrothal still on the table. But he has a sort of perpetual irreverence…one wonders if he could ever be sincere about anything at all.”

“Perhaps it’s a fa?ade,” Hannah suggested without conviction. “Perhaps he’s a different man inside.”

“Most people don’t have fa?ades,” Natalie said dryly. “Oh, everyone thinks they do, but when you dig past the fa?ade, there’s only more fa?ade.”

“Some people are genuine.”

“And those people are the dullest ones of all.”

“I’m genuine,” Hannah protested.

“Yes. You’ll have to work on that, dear. When you’re genuine, there’s no mystery. And above all men like mystery in a woman.”

Hannah smiled and shook her head. “Duly noted. I’m off to bed now.” After changing into a white ruffled nightgown, she went into the little antechamber and crawled into the clean soft bed. After a moment, she heard Natalie murmur, “Good night, dear,” and the lamp was extinguished.

Tucking one arm beneath her pillow, Hannah lay on her side and pondered Natalie’s words.

There was no doubt that Natalie was rightHannah had nothing close to an air of mystery.

She also had no noble blood, no dowry, no great beauty, no skill or abilities that might distinguish her. And aside from the Blandfords, she had no notable connections. But she had a warm heart and a good mind, and decent looks. And she had dreams, attainable ones, of having a home and family of her own someday.

It had not escaped Hannah that in Natalie’s privileged world, people expected to find happiness and love outside of marriage. But her fondest wish for Natalie was that she would end up with a husband with whom she could share some likeness of mind and heart.

And at this point, it was still highly questionable as to whether Rafe Bowman even had a heart.

CHAPTER 6

While Westcliff shared cigars with Lord Blandford, Rafe went with his father to have a private conversation. They proceeded to the library, a large and handsome room that was two stories high, with mahogany bookshelves housing over ten thousand volumes. A sideboard had been built into a niche to make it flush with the bookshelves.

Rafe was thankful to see that a collection of bottles and decanters had been arranged on the sideboard’s marble top. Feeling the need for something stronger than port, he found the whisky decanter. “A double?” he suggested to his father, who nodded and grunted in assent.

Rafe had always hated talking with his father. Thomas Bowman was the kind of man who determined other people’s minds for them, believing that he knew them better than they knew themselves. Since early childhood Rafe had endured being told what his thoughts and motivations were, and then being punished for them. It hardly seemed to matter whether he had done something good or bad. It had only mattered what light his father had decided to cast his actions in.

And always, Thomas had held the threat of disinheritance over his head. Finally Rafe had told him to cut him off entirely and be damned. And he had gone out to make his own fortune, starting with practically nothing.

Now when he met with his father, it was on his own terms. Oh, Rafe wanted the European proprietorship of Bowman’s, but he wasn’t going to sell his soul for it.

He handed a whisky to his father and took a swallow, letting the creamy, sweet flavor of ester roll over his tongue.

Thomas went to sit in a leather chair before the fire. Frowning, he reached up to check the position of the toupee on his head. It had been slipping all evening.

“You might tie a chin strap on it,” Rafe suggested innocently, earning a ferocious scowl.

“Your mother finds it attractive.”

“Father, I find it difficult to believe that hairpiece would attract anything other than an amorous squirrel.” Rafe plucked the toupee off and dropped it onto a nearby table. “Leave it off and be comfortable, for God’s sake.”

Thomas grumbled but didn’t argue, relaxing in his chair.

Leaning an arm against the mantel, Rafe regarded his father with a faint smile.

“Well?” Thomas demanded, his heavy brows lifting expectantly. “What is your reaction to Lady Natalie?”

Rafe hitched up his shoulders in a lazy shrug. “She’ll do.”

The brows rushed downward. ” ‘She’ll do’? That’s all you can say?”

“Lady Natalie is no more and no less than what I expected.” After taking another swallow of whisky, Rafe said flatly, “I suppose I wouldn’t mind marrying her. Although she doesn’t interest me in the least.”

“A wife is not supposed to be interesting.”

Ruefully Rafe wondered if there wasn’t some hidden wisdom in that. With a wife like Lady Natalie, there would be no surprises. It would be a calm, frictionless marriage, leaving him ample time for his work and his personal pursuits. All he would have to do would be to supply her with generous bank drafts, and she would manage the household and produce children.

Lady Natalie was pleasant and beautiful, her hair blond and sleek, her manner remarkably self-assured. If Rafe ever took her to New York, she would acquit herself splendidly with the Knickerbocker crowd. Her poise, breeding, and confidence would make her much admired.

An hour in her company, and one knew virtually everything there was to know about her.

Whereas Hannah Appleton was fresh and fascinating, and at supper he hadn’t been able to take his gaze off her. She did not possess Natalie’s meticulously manicured beauty. Instead, there was a haphazard, cheerful bloom about her, like a fistful of wild-flowers. Her hair, springing in little locks around her face, drove him mad with the urge to reach out and play with the shiny loose strands. She had a kind of delicious vitality he had never run up against before, and he instinctively wanted to be inside it, inside her.

The feeling had intensified as Rafe had witnessed Hannah conversing earnestly with Westcliff. She had been animated and adorable as she had described Samuel Clark’s work concerning the development of the human mind. In fact, she had become so absorbed in the subject that she had forgotten to eat, and then she’d glanced wistfully at her still-full soup bowl while a footman had removed it.

“You will offer for her, won’t you?” his father demanded, steering his thoughts back to Lady Natalie.

Rafe stared at him without expression. “Eventually. Am I supposed to get a ring, or have you already picked one out?”

“As a matter of fact, your mother purchased one she thought would be appropriate”

“Oh, for God’s sake. Would you like to propose to her for me, and come fetch me when she’s given her answer?”

“I daresay I’d do it with a damned sight more enthusiasm than you,” Thomas retorted.

“I’ll tell you what I would do with some enthusiasm, Father: establish a large-scale soap manufacturing industry all over the Continent. And I shouldn’t have to marry Lady Natalie to do it.”

“Why not? Why should you be exempt from paying a price? Why shouldn’t you try to please me?”

“Why indeed?” Rafe gave him a hard look. “Maybe because I knocked my head against that particular wall for years and never made a dent.”

Thomas’s complexion, always prone to easy color, turned a dull plum hue as his temper ignited. “You have been a trial to me at every stage of your life. Things always came too easily to you and your siblingsspoiled, lazy creatures all of you, who never wanted to do anything.”

“Lazy?” Rafe struggled for self-control, but the word set his own temper off like a match held to a tinderbox. “Only you, Father, could have five offspring do everything short of standing on their heads to impress you, and say they weren’t trying hard enough. Do you know what happens when you call a clever person stupid, or a hardworking man lazy? It makes him realize there’s no damn point in trying to get your approval.”

“You’ve always thought I owed you my approval merely because you were born a Bowman.”

“I don’t want it any longer,” Rafe said through gritted teeth, vaguely surprised to discover that the velocity of his own temper wasn’t far behind his father’s. “I want” He checked himself and tossed back the rest of his whisky, swallowing hard against the velvety burn. When the glow had faded from his throat, he gave his father a cool, steady look. “I’ll marry Lady Natalie, since it doesn’t matter in any case. I was always going to end up with someone like her. But you can keep your damned approval. All I want is a share of Bowman’s.”

IN THE MORNING THE GUESTS BEGAN TO ARRIVE, AN ELEGANT clamor of well-heeled families and their servants. Trunks, valises, and parcels were brought into the manor in an unending parade. Other families would stay at neighboring estates or at the tavern in the village, coming and going to the various events that would take place at the manor.

Once Hannah was awakened by the muffled, busy sounds beyond the room, she couldn’t go back to sleep. Taking care not to wake Natalie, she rose and took care of her morning ablutions, finishing by braiding her hair and pinning it in a knot at the base of her neck. She dressed in a gray-green wool gown trimmed with kilt pleating and closed in front with gleaming black buttons. Intending to go for a walk out of doors, she donned a pair of low-heeled boots and picked up a heavy plaid shawl.