A Simple Life of a Teenage Boy

On one particular day, I was so sick and had to be taken to a nearby hospital. I was admitted there for some few weeks. I missed most of the classes and it was affecting my studies. James came to visit me in the hospital and he told me that you were desperately asking about me. I was so happy to hear that but I told him to not say him even a word about my condition. I knew that you fell in love with me and so did I. I used to look out of the window, gaze at the moon and would suddenly think about you. I didn't know why but looking at the lonely moon always made me think about you. I had the feeling that you were also looking at the same moon. In some lonely nights I used to think about you and wondered why my heart chose you out of all other boys who were so dearer to me. I would think about the moment you used to peek at me for most of the time at school looking so innocent. I knew every moment when you stared at me for even just a single second. Slowly, I began to notice you more often and when I would not see you or look at your deep blue eyes, I would feel like there was something missing. Despite that we never talked with each other, the only moment when our eyes met would give me a different kind of warm feeling which I never felt before. When I was brought to Seattle for the treatment, I sent my sister Jennifer to find you and look at how you were doing at the school. When I knew that my condition was worse and I had just a little hope of living, I felt that I should be far from you. To forget the innocent stalker whom I fell in love with. I thought you would forget about me eventually after so long but Jen told me that you were still searching for me so desperately. James helped us alot too. He always tried to make both of us happy together. She told me that you were lonely for most of the time and that she always saw some pain deep in your eyes. Then she suddenly asked about me and told you everything regardless that I advised her to not tell you anything. Even James told me how lost you were. Then still I couldn't do anything than to cry and live alone. Sometimes I felt sad that you were not by my side but then again would fill with happiness that were still in my imagination. I thought about you for most of the time and even prayed to meet you in next life. I gave up on living long ago. I was neither meant to live nor have someone to hold my hands until I would get old. When I was small, I always dreamt of going heaven with the prince with shiny cloth riding me on the back of a beautiful white horse. But it was just a childish dream. It was never meant to be true. Unlike the fairy tale, I couldn't even have a normal life. Seeing you made me very happy because at least there was someone who ever loved me. And do you know the best moment of my life? It was when you danced with me on the Valentine's day with your hand in my hands and when we were so close with each other that I could even feel your warm breath in my forehead.