A Simple Life of a Teenage Boy

Life is full of miseries, happiness, sorrow, bliss and all kind of strange things. I think it's already planned about what's gonna happen next. Maybe God makes some sort of story up in the heaven and we are sent to Earth to serve the role of that story. And someone's story is good and someone have a bad ending. Everything that I have experienced till now are somewhat related to everything in my life like a story is developing within itself. But I don't know if I have a good ending or not. To this time, my story is sort of painful and full of obstacles which I cannot overcome by any means. A sun is yet to rise down below the dark valley where I live. And it will be a miracle if it rises there, in a place where there is no hope of seeing a sunlight. My sunshine went far from me a long ago and there's no hope of seeing her again. She was everything to me and I was nothing to her. I don't even know if I exist in her life. Wow! What a tragic story I have. I laugh at myself for how helpless I am. And how heartless the god is for writing such a painful story.

Jenny, the girl I'm in love with went away. I'm getting sick of these tired feelings and not being able to forget her. If I could just bang my head in a wall and forget everything about her since the very beginning then it would be so much easy. At least the pain would go away after sometime. The only thing I ever want with God is to reverse the time. Everything would be back to normal and everything could be saved before it all went wrong. I could be living somewhere doing my own things. But look at me, how miserable I have become now. No matter how many times I listen to sad songs or try to cheer myself or go out with friends, the result is the same. I end up missing her. What is wrong with me?