A Court of Wings and Ruin
Page 59“I need you. As an option. In my future.”
Silence. And even with the sun warming my feet, a terrible cold spread through me.
His throat bobbed. “If it means giving you a future, then I’m willing to do—”
“You will do no such thing.” I panted through my bared teeth, leaning forward in my chair.
Rhys only watched me, eyes shadowed. “How can you ask me not to give everything I have to ensure that you, that my family and people, survive?”
“You’ve given enough.”
“Not enough. Not yet.”
It was hard to breathe, to see past the burning in my eyes. “Why? Where does this come from, Rhys?”
For once, he didn’t answer.
And there was something brittle enough in his expression, some long unhealed wound that glimmered there, that I sighed, rubbed my face, and then said, “Just—work with me. With all of us. Together. This isn’t your burden alone.”
He plucked another grape from its stem, chewed. His lips tilted in a faint smile. “So what do you propose, then?”
I could still see that vulnerability in his eyes, still feel it in that bond between us, but I angled my head. I sorted through all I knew, all that had happened. Considered the books I’d read in the library below. A library that housed—
“Amren warned us to never put the two halves of the Book together,” I mused. “But we—I did. She said that older things might be … awoken by it. Might come sniffing.”
Rhys crossed an ankle over a knee.
One that I would do everything in my power to use, rather than let Rhys face the brunt of this alone.
His brows rose. “Oh?”
“The Bone Carver,” I clarified. “He and Amren have both been looking for a way back to their own worlds.” The Carver had been insistent, relentless, in asking me that day in the Prison about where I had gone during death. I could have sworn Rhys’s golden-brown skin paled, but I added, “I wonder if it’s time to ask him what he’d give to go back home.”
CHAPTER
21
The aching muscles along my back, core, and thighs had gone into complete revolt by the time Rhys and I parted ways, my mate heading off to track down Cassian—who would be my escort tomorrow morning to the Prison. If both of us had gone, it would perhaps look too … desperate, too vital. But if the High Lady and her general went to visit the Carver to pose some hypothetical questions …
It would still show our hand, but perhaps not quite how badly we needed any extra bit of assistance. And Cassian, unsurprisingly, knew more about the Carver than anyone thanks to some morbid fascination with all of the Prison’s inmates. Especially since he was responsible for jailing some of them.
But while Rhys sought out Cassian, I had a task of my own.
I was wincing and hissing as I strode through the murky red halls of the House to find my sister and Amren. To see which of them was still standing after their first lesson. Among other things.
I found them in a quiet, forgotten workroom, coldly watching the other.
“Sorry to interrupt your staring contest,” I said, lingering in the doorway. I rubbed at a spot low in my back. “I wanted to see how the first lesson was going.”
“Fine.” Amren didn’t take her eyes off my sister, a faint smile playing about her red mouth.
I studied Nesta, who gazed at Amren, utterly stone-faced.
“What are you doing?”
“Waiting,” Amren said.
“For what?”
“For busybodies to leave us alone.”
I straightened, clearing my throat. “Is this part of her training?”
Amren turned her head to me with exaggerated slowness, her chin-length, razor-straight hair shifting with the movement. “Rhys has his own method of training you. I have mine.” Her white teeth flashed with every word. “We visit the Court of Nightmares tomorrow night—she needs some basic training before we do.”
“Like what?”
Amren sighed at the ceiling. “Shielding herself. From prying minds and powers.”
I blinked. I should have thought of that. That if Nesta were to join us, be at the Hewn City … she would need some defenses beyond what we could offer her.
Nesta at last looked to me, her face as cold as ever.
Amren clicked her tongue. “She’s fine. Stubborn as an ass, but as you’re related, I’m not surprised.”
I scowled. “How am I supposed to know what your methods are? For all I know, you picked up some terrible techniques in that Prison.”
Careful. So, so careful.
Amren hissed, “That place taught me plenty of things, but certainly not this.”
I angled my head, the portrait of curiosity. “Did you ever interact with the others?”
The fewer people who knew about my trip tomorrow to see the Carver, the safer it was—the less chance of Hybern catching wind of it. Not for any fear of betrayal, but … there was always risk.
Azriel, now off hunting for information on the Autumn Court, would be told when he returned tonight. Mor … I’d tell her eventually. But Amren … Rhys and I had decided to wait to tell Amren. The last time we’d gone to the Prison, she’d been … testy. Telling her we planned to unleash one of her fellow inmates? Perhaps not the best thing to mention while we waited for her to find a way to heal that wall—and train my sister.
Impatience rippled across Amren’s face, those silver eyes flaring. “I only spoke to them in whispers and echoes through rock, girl. And I was glad of it.”
“What’s the Prison?” Nesta asked at last.
“A hell entombed in stone,” Amren said. “Full of creatures you should thank the Mother no longer walk the earth freely.”
Nesta frowned deeply, but shut her mouth.